Dainty

Cherios

2008-04-03T07:51:00.003+08:00

Moved to mycattyardour.lj

P.S. Due to privacy's sake, I've blocked some entries from the public eye (fyi).

Cause I'm a bad girlfriend

2008-03-30T21:42:00.005+08:00

And so I have committed the gravest of the gravest mistake all girlfriends would have done in the universe, haven't I? That I've sinned so much such that I don't deserve that chance to salvage the situation right? I'll take the rap. I'm sorry for wasting your time.

P.S: You've kept me in the lurch as well, please.

Vengeful valediction

2008-03-25T10:28:00.013+08:00

Transitlink's customer service hotline is being such a whore! I tried calling in several times & what did I receive in response?

"Sorry. The customer service officer is currently busy. You will be served in a while. Please wait... (fill in the blanks, blah blah -.-)"

Hah! Right. Eventually, the background music (they got the hotline tuned in to some dubious soothing music while waiting) served me for I'd say forever? Blimey! I've never pined for any ear therapy, like hello? I merely ~~want~~ need whoever's on duty to be on the line NOW!

. . .

Her eye caught the phrase 'Delete all' as she scrolled down the menu-drop fixed in the screen of the cell. Should she or shouldn't she? Her right thumb shifted aimlessly about the button, with her mind whizzing in a buzz, attempting hard to rank the degree of redundance should she still opt to keep them all. But, everything has already come to a dead halt right? The other party had been declared itself independence since forever. She shouldn't be so persistent to being hesitant now, or should she?

With a deep breather, a strong heart, a determined mind, plus tightly-shut eyes, the button was clicked. One by one, the virtual dispatch got themselves ditched, ditched, ditched for good. An evil smile crept in. An uncontrollable reckless scheme grasped her mind, fragmented her sanity for a moment.

So long, worthless reminiscience.

. . .

Ramen ten, starbucks, clarke quay yesterday with the girls, ahh! More to come? Chill at an exquisite club at clarke quay till the wee hour, anyone?

P.S: gay clubs and fairul, hmm. must be an experience to remember, lol. turn 18
quick, dyna! yay. then we go that salsa club also, let's!
P.P.S: cannot wait
for slumber partayyyyyyyy, if there's one!

. . .

I just realize that orientation's like in a goddamned less than a month's time! Talk about new school, environment, social circle, lecturers, et cetera et cetera et cetera. Nerve-wrecking much? God

What's in a name?

2008-03-16T23:17:00.006+08:00

Your German Name is:

Elfi Arianne

What's Your German Name?

Your Russian Name Is...

Tatianna Feodora Lebedev

What's Your Russian Name?

Your French Name is:

Fleur Chalon

What's Your French Name?

Your Irish Name Is...

Fidelma MacMahon

What's Your Irish Name?

a toast to vengeance

2008-03-15T23:18:00.005+08:00

Gonna submit ALL of those major enrolments documents this coming monday & voila, I'm one step closer to being dubbed officially as a tp student! Having completed plus submitted all those shitty administrative stuffs would gotta be, I shall/must admit, a hell of a load of my mind- really. Blame it on me (of course) for being mega-reliant on correction tape & liquid (despite the countless times of reading the instructions stated in the enrolment guide. Damn those itchy fingers of mine!), thus forcing to drag myself to tp yesterday to redeem those new documents back. Inspiring much?

AND TO MAKE THINGS WORST, my ezlink card was confiscated by a proudly-declared (or so the bloody subject claimed to be) go-by-the-hell-of-a-book chinese bus driver. He babbled on & on about how a polytechnic student's supposed to use a matric card each & every time one boards a public transport, thus reaching to a conclusion that I should get it by now and et cetera & that I shouldn't be selfish to use children's fare cause of justice- wtf?! I retaliated hard & tried explaining to him of course, but eventually I lost (duh? Was like at his mercy that time). He snatched my card away, slipped it in his pocket, tore some dumb strip for redeem cash balance purposes & lectured -.- Damn! He tried so hard to publicize me as some juvenile criminal that I got so angry, that I stormed off to the last seat & got my ears blasted to loud music. ROAR.

P.S: 'could have been nicer to me right, mr driver? see, you're just too rude a driver that i forgot to record down ur stupid plate number onto my lovely cell. i was boiling so much inside out!

P.P.S: am i the only one college dropout to receive such treatment from a driver? it's not like i'm the only one using the blue concession card still, hello? i know of other college retirees who still use 'em without even getting reprimanded by dubious people. i mean, i understand that much sooner than later, i'm gonna use adult concession fare, but c'mon, just 1 month's grace- would it hurt you so much to spare me tt? aiyo. hahaha diana, you're jinxed!

P.P.P.S: could've used profanities on you to show how mad I was at that moment, but on second thoughts, i'm thankful to god for being such a pro in anger management. wouldn't wanna be as unethical as you, eww? haven't i got enough humiliation as it was already!? tsk

Apart from that, I'm like still in high spirits (as written in the previous entry)! With my crazy pussies, good friends & family by my side, what more could I yearn for now? As for relationships, we'll talk about that some other time ah k? For now, embrace singlehood!

SPOT ON!

2008-03-05T23:24:00.022+08:00

"You are focused on something serious, maybe your job, maybe a problem with your kid. You can make amazing progress, thanks to your single-mindedness and willingness to get things started."

-www.astrology.com/straits

Feb 23, 2008 (Saturday)

P.S: Read: focused on something serious!

(Don't really WISH to disclose the matter any further, but yes, I'm indeed working on some mission right now)

P.P.S: Read: you can make amazing progress!!

(Pretty extremely excited to witness the outcome! Things are getting to be way better than I expected- I'm so looking forward to the change so much.)

P.P.P.S: Get out of the way, ruthless blues! Let the fabulous high spirits shimmy in for now :)

. . .

The very idea that sparrow keeps throwing questioning glances at ili during breaks ~~quite~~ ~~really~~ totally catches my attention. From the sound of it, that somehow spells 'hmm, where's your other half, I wonder?' Yessa! C'mon, being a tad wishful for just a mere moment won't hurt, will it? Don't crack la, sakinah. I'm bloody happy that he acknowledges my existence! Somehow. (I choose to think that way! SHUT UP) Haha! -.- (note that I'm not that desperate for his attention though, hello?)

Reality-check: I've lost faith in guys & love, fucking duh!

Such littlest things that quite turn me on. Tsk. Ah well. Not that of a big deal to me. What matters is- I'M HAPPY LIKE OVER THE MOON, SUPER-DUPER EXUBERANT now. All smiles, pussies!

. . .

What career will suit your personality?

You would be very happy in a career that utilised your level-headedness, and allowed you to work mainly on your own. You want a career that allows you to stimulate your senses and your mind, without having to be involved with lots of people. Some careers that would be perfect for you are:

Novelist (YAY)
Photographer (don't mention this! i don't wanna be in the scene, those die-hard trend-followers, pfft)
Vet (eww? this job's so liyana, not me!)
Medical Technician
Paralegal (WOW! really ah?)
Geologist (fuck geography)
Marine Biologist
Graphic Designer
Online Content Developer
Webmaster
Computer Security
Producer
Computer Programmer
Technical Writer
Systems Analyst
Meteorologist (wtf?!)
Artist (hahahahaha! right! i suck at drawing, dude)

You like working and being alone. You like to avoid attention at all costs. You tend to keep to yourself, and not interact much with the people around you. You enjoy spending time with a few a close friends. You like to listen to others, but don't like sharing much about yourself. You are very quiet and private.

You are very practical, and only act after thinking things through. You don't like being forced to answer quickly. You have to evaluate the situation completely. You make decisions based on what you can verify with your senses.

You like to be involved deeply in one or two special projects. You like to be behind the scenes. You are very logical and fair. You feel you should be honest with others at all costs.

You trust what is certain. You only like new ideas if they can be practically applied to the situation. You value what is real. You use your common sense. You like to utilise the skills you have instead of learning new ones. You are very specific and detailed when writing or talking to others. You follow directions well. You like things to be laid out for you to do instead of working them out for yourself. You like decisions to be made. You don't like things to be left in limbo. You like to know what you are getting into before you commit to something.

You like to focus on the here and now. You enjoy completing projects. It is important for you to achieve and succeed. Therefore, you believe in working hard and playing later. You like to set goals and work towards them.

-http://quiz.ivillage.co.uk/cgi-bin/uk_work/tests/career.pl

Who is your celebrity twin?

Kate Hudson

Your ideal life is that of a Bohemian beach bum. You're the quintessential fun girl -the one all the guys want to hang out with for her natural beauty and laid-back attitude. Like Kate, you embrace the hippie lifestyle and are a free spirit. You need a man who can make you laugh, and you understand how hard marriage and relationships can be. (Kate has said she never wanted to know if her soon-to-be ex-husband, Chris Robinson, was cheating on her). You form close bonds with your immediate family but can separate the good people in your life from those who are poor influences.

-http://quiz.ivillage.co.uk/cgi-bin/uk_politics/tests/CelebDoubleQuiz.pl

Survey time!

2008-02-26T07:48:00.003+08:00

1. Do you think people talk about you
behind your back?
- do i look like i give a damn on this? -.-

3. Who on your Friendster Featured
Friend do you talk to the most?
- haven't got any in the list for decades, so

4. What time is your alarm clock set
for?
- 0545: wake-up call for the sisters

5. If there was a fire, what would be
the first thing you would grab?
- cell

6. Flip flops or sneakers?
- former

7. Who's your favorite Disney princess?
- all?! haha!

8. What was the last movie you watched?
- it's been aeons

9. Has anyone ever called you lazy?
- yes

10. Have you ever tried sticking your
fingers together?
- have got better things to do than this

11. What CD is currently in your CD
player?
- i don't do cd players.

12. Do you prefer regular or chocolate
milk?..
- fresh whole milk

13. Has anyone told you a secret this
week?
- yes

14. Who was the last person to call
you?
- sis

15. When was the last time you cried?
- skip -.-

16. Why?
- SKIP

17. How many siblings do you have?
- three, including me

18. Last time someone gave you flowers?
- ah skip

19. What movie do you know every line
to?
- not a movie buff here. i know i'm boring, but who bloody cares

20. What is the longest book you ever
read?
- a few of 'em. one'd be memoirs of a geisha

21. Are you mad at anyone?
- nah. i've grown numb to such irritable subjects

22. Do you cry a lot?
- no ah

23. Do you have a desktop computer or
a laptop?
- both

24. Are you currently wanting any
piercings or tattoos?
- no

25. What is the weather like?
- breezy

26. Would you ever date someone
covered in tattoos?
- eww! spare me the humiliation, pls

27. When was the last time you slept
on the floor?
- idk

28. How many hours of sleep do you
need to function?
- haven't kept track of that yet so far

29. Are your days full and fast-paced?
- hell not

30. What is your favorite TV show?
- none

31. Which celebrity(ies) dead or alive
would you want to have lunch with?
- i don't idolise celebs. but, i don't mind dining with adam levine!

32. What is one thing you wish you had?
- skippppp

33. How's your heart lately?
- still pumping hard to keep me alive -.-

34. When was the last time you went
out?
- ytd

35. What made you smile today?
- it's still morning, dude. but i just worked out, so i'm pretty happy for now.

. . .

1. Where is the person you have
feelings for right now?
-

2. When was your last hug, who?
-

3. Did the last person you held hands
with mean anything to you?
-

4. Do you sleep with the TV on?
- only when i'm on vacation (re: suite rooms in hotels, spooky nights)

5. What are you doing right now?
- bumming ard

6. Who's Friendster Password Do You
Have?
- ili's

7. Name what you did yesterday?
- booked for theory test. yes, i just found the time for this only ytd -.-

8. Are you dating the last person you
kissed?
-

9. Have you ever been suspended or
expelled from school?
- god no

10. Is there someone you wanna date
right now?
-

11. Have you ever crawled through
window?
- i think so

12.Can you handle the truth?
- i guess? ah skip

13. Are you too forgiving?
- no

14. Ever have a sleepover with the
opposite sex?
- yes. do you count cousins in?

15. Are you closer to your mother or
father?
- frankly speaking, mama

16. Have you ever wanted to be a
teacher?
- yes

17. Do you have trust issues?
- yes

18. Would you live with someone without
marrying them?
- that really depends

19. Have your friends ever seen you
cry?
- yes -.-

20. Who was the last person you cried
in front of?
-

21. Have you ever wanted to strip naked
in front of someone?
- HAHAHAHAHA YES, WITH MY TWO LOVELY GFS :)

22. How many people can you say you've
really loved?
- i love my family & my bitches!

23. Do you eat healthy?
- i'm working on it now :)

24. What are you listening to?
- losing my mind

25. If you could pick one person to
disappear from the planet, who would
it be?
-

. . .

Do you know where your sister is right
now?
- prolly in the sch hall, getting ready to sit for common test

What is something new you've learned
about yourself recently?
- that i could cook!

What color is your watch?
- i just bought a new one in white, again! white watches are the ultimate bomb

Do you like anyone?
-

Do you know of anyone who likes you?
- who cares

What is the name of your school?
- temasek poly ;)

What are you listening to right now?
- leave me alone

What are you doing right now?
- nothing

What is/are your favorite color/s?
- purple, pink & white

Closest thing to your right?
- graphic calculator. illyssa, get back to me asap! i need the moneyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy urgently

What t-shirt are you wearing?
- nightdress

Do you have a brother?
- nope

Time you were born?
- ???

Do you know anyone who is engaged?
- no

Whats your favorite number?
- -.-

Do you know someone named Glen?
- yes

What color is your mom's hair?
- black

Do you have a dog?
- no, that'd be a blasphemy.

Do you remember singing any songs as a
kid?
- yes! twinkle, twinkle lil star became a hit during my pre-sch times & i was chosen to sing in some major performance when i was four.

When was the last time you went
swimming?
- a century ago

When was the last time you talked to
one of your siblings?
- just a few mins back

Did you ever go to camp as a child?
- yes la

Do you like fire, wind or water?
- all

Are you allergic to anything?
- quite. consumption of seafood greatly discouraged

When was the last time you cried?
-

Do you like butterflies?
- yes

What is the one thing you miss about
your recent past?
-

Have you ever seen your school
principal?
- nah-ah, not yet

Have you ever wanted to be a teacher?
- yes yes

Are you jealous of anyone?
- i'm jealous of... jessica alba for being so hot! tyra banks, for the uber confidence in her! paris hilton for some great wealthy life she's been gifted! -.- i still love myself though (wow diana! hehe)

Is anyone jealous of you?
- no

Ever been stuck in an elevator?
- no

What does your mom call you?
- yana

What do your sibling/s call you?
- kakak

What do your friends call you?
- diana or dee

What does your hair look like right
now?
- messy

Has a friend ever used you?
- idk

Has anyone recently told you that they
like you?
-

What have you eaten today?
- haven't got breakfast yet, so far

How old were you when you first gotten
into a fight?
- lalalala, idk

Are you close with your siblings?
- yes

Where were you yesterday?
- driving ctr. bedok for food.

Do you listen to other people's advice?
- i'm picky at this. i only trust those whom i'm close to.

Prolific fucker IV

2008-02-25T19:37:00.003+08:00

Like how potions bubbled hard in a seething, often-seen-in-cliche-fairytales witch's cauldron, that's how she felt right then. It gurgled worser & worser as days leapt by until that one fateful moment. The moment when the heart chose to remain numb. Time taught her all. No matter how she made huge efforts in convincing herself that things would reciprocate in the desired way, she knew she couldn't simply live in utter denial for long.

That things would remain as it was.
That things would stay as it was for eternity.
That things would never change despite endless prayers for badly-yearned miracles.

Whizzed her mind,
"Say what you want to say, do what you want to do. Go out with whoever by all means, just be it. I shouldn't meddle with your affairs since you've called us quits. You got the freedom that you want- use it."
Whizzed his mind,
"Don't get me wrong................................ I'm not having affair(s) diana."

Assertions after assertions. Hopes after hopes. Hell. Now she didn't even know who or what to believe anymore. Part of her thought that this was all fake. Part of her inclined/forced to believe that this was all fake. This thing's going nowhere. Indeed she'd reached a dead end. One solution?

Move on.
Just freaking move on!

. . .

It's that time of the month again. -.-

P.S: NO! Please, I'm so not refering to pms.
P.P.S: It's just me & the cruel self-inferior month. TSK

. . .

YAY! ILI GAVE ME TPJC YEARBOOK! Big deal huh, diana? BUT OF COURSE. THERE'S SPARROW! Cutest thing in the world. -.-
OH! AND I VIEWED TPJC'S CORPORATE MUSIC VIDEO ALREADY! GOT YOUR FACE ILI! WITH ANNURSHAH SIA. See? Even the cameras chose to cut me off (i sat in front of ili & i wasn't in the vid!). Proven that I'm u-g-l-y. -.-

Oh cut the crap, Diana. Petty you. -.-

. . .

Ah scram off. SCRAM OFF.

Perfect surprise & Prolific fucker (III)

2008-02-19T07:45:00.018+08:00

I was so close to having my system breaking down from anxiety.

And as I was jogging around the neighbourhood, as I was getting ready for my second lap, I received this text message:

MOE: Congrats NURDIANA BTE HASIM, you are posted to TEMASEK POLY, LAW & MANAGEMENT (T09) under 2008 JAE.

Lol, who am i kidding- breaking down? I leapt for joy, I could feel my lips curving into a genuinely sickeningly saccharine-ly wide smile in the middle of the streets, in the swarm of people rushing for time, rushing to work, rather! I couldn't care less about the lot, muahaha. Pretty excited to get myself back on track again (note to self: two months left till i officially get enrolled!). Hopefully, it'll give me a new lease on life. Perfect!

P.S: I realize I have such nice friends, plus such awesome bitches. Thanks a lot for the well-wishings, guys. Totally appreciate them all :)

P.P.S: 2nd lap of jogging to be continued tmr.

. . .

Family's the shit, yo. I'll always love you all no matter how you people can wonderfully transform the serenity in the house into a noisy market. Heeeeeeeeeeehe. (are you okay, diana, no?) Goodness, I miss the cousins! dfjsfhkjfh

. . .

She tossed and turned for what seemed like a zillionth time, but hell, her eyes still refused to shut off. She couldn't stop recollecting the strangest things that happened of late. Yes, it was truly indeniable that she was over the top at the fact that the leeway between them sort of abridged ever since the horror took charge. But, it was rather a cold, oddly pretentious abridger (albeit the friendly tone), she'd rather say. Why the sudden change of behaviour? Ironic circumstances never failed to meddle her disposition, indeed he really made her totally confused.

What is his definition of ambiguous, she really wonder. Ya sure, he's the only one to rule her world, he's the one to make a take, to have the final say in their amorous relationship, the one that could dispose her off fast & then the next day, asked for another chance again, only to simultaneously call it off come a few days later.

But that was what he thought. He was the man of her life, was the man of her life indeed. For lord's sake, she couldn't imagine what's worst: having to get fresh with a fickle-brained boyfriend & risked adjusting herself to halfway-made decisions in future or mourning miserably at the span of perhaps a decade over 'this unrequited love'. Damn! Only now could she justify the amount of respect that's been given to her. Rather dispensable was she, after refering to the abovementioned paragraph? What shameful fact. A truly dillemic situation, you could've witnessed here. Tsk

This ironic behaviour of his had made her indulge into a silent flicker of hope. Only to realize that she'd totally tightly be slammed with humiliation, morbid rejection & of course, disappointment (however how much she yearned for reincarnation of histoire). Without any pinch of doubt.

Lesson learnt #1: In the subject of love, never, ever involve a female with the opposite-specied homosapiens of the highest-degree in fickle-mindedness.

Dedication

2008-02-15T07:14:00.018+08:00

Mum's getting older each year! Yes, you guessed right- it's her 42nd birthday yesterday. When everyone else was celebrating valentine's day, it's a different matter for our family. Sisters & I gave her our handmade cards (mine's the prettiest, mind ya!), sang her birthday song like umpteen times, had a little feast indoors (no thanks to 2nd sister; some test's due tomorrow & she gotta mug) and etc. Cake? We'll have it next time (it doesn't hurt for that, does it? Mum's okay with it- she wants everyone to be free to eat the cake tgt as a family. Sweet), she said. Love you always, mum! Stay young at heart, and happy birthday once again!

Diana

P.S:

mum & dad at the zoo

this pic's so funny! pose like gangsters -.-
i swear they gonna kill me if they see this pic posted in here, oops.

recent raya. they look like they just got married, again!

candid picture. taken by baba. -.-

P.P.S:

super long-overdued picture, but since this post's all about birthday dedication, i might as well post this picture. this is during halif (and sadiq)'s birthday gathering on 3rd feb. send me the one i posed with sadiq also, you!

Prolific fucker II

2008-02-12T07:16:00.000+08:00

She flipped her cell as she switched off the computer later that night. "12:45pm" flashed the screen. Nothing else. Not an incoming text message, much less a call from him. How she sighed. Shaking her head in an attempt to leave the past behind her, she headed straight to the master bedroom to kiss her mother goodnight. She couldn't throw this habit off, despite her being eighteen-years-old that year. But, so what? Who says expressing your love towards your bonded ones only limit to childhood years? She rolled her eyes hard, then shrugged her shoulders off at that thought. Such pride. Such audacity. Well, what's new with human beings, again she questioned herself in discreet.

"Have you gone to the doc's? Are you okay?"
"Huh? Mum? Clinics aren't open at this hour! And I'm still well, alive & kicking here! Are you actually okay, mum?"
A brief silence. She waited for her response. A minute flew past. Still, there wasn't any answer coming from her. Her mother, she presumed, must have been dreaming. How odd. She giggled faintly at this. Fancy witnessing her talking gibberish in her slightest-conscious mind at this wee hour of the night. Must have been fatigued from all that working, she thought.

"Bless you."
Her mother woke up right after she mouthed those words. With her forehead creasing hard, followed by the gap between her eyebrows narrowed with them scrunching close, any individual could read that she was totally in agony/fear. Immediately, she told her daughter of hers of what she's been dreaming about just then.

"You collapsed. I tried to call the ambulance, but it's too late! Your father, sisters & I cried. Oh my god."
Right, mother! Laughing at mother's comical nightmare, she assured her that she's fine all along & that was just a mere nightmare that more possible than not, NOT happen in reality of course. Soon after, both mother & daughter were involved in fits of giggles over the dubious incident, looking so adorable & bonded than anyone else in the universe paired together.

"Tell me if you've any problems, Dee. You can't fool your own mother. One look, and I can read what's in your mind. That bad dream of mine just tells me something about you."
"Don't be superstitious, mum! You're being ridiculous."
"It's an intuition. A die-hard intuition."

Intuition. Her mother knew her too well. No matter how hard she tried to put up a facade with a fake smile plastered on her face 24/7, she knew she couldn't run away from her. Now what? Was she supposed to spill the beans out, no? She couldn't think straight, all she could do was to question the measures of wise-being if and only if she did as what she was told. Damn.

"Goodnight Mum. I'm just fine, don't worry," she said as she left the room in a loss for words. No, the cat musn't be let out of the bag. The last thing she would do was to make her mother worried. A problem too redundant for her to be concerned about, really. Let it be a burden just between the diary & her alone. Fabulous, just fabulous.

Prolific fucker

2008-02-11T09:50:00.000+08:00

Tears streamed down her cheeks as she perched her head on the window sill, with teary love ballads humming in her sickly mind. Vivid reminiscent got the better of her as she penned down her malevolence in her diary- in which she seeked solace of late. What seemed like a perfect amourish camaraderie had ended abruptly, leaving her breathing every second of life in desolation & a weakly-being frame of mind. After all this time, she realized that fate has been cruel enough to her, 'gifting' to her what seemed like a romantic pantomime, which lasted just for a mere year. Now she knew; her conscious mind sensed the sudden, slamming reality. The voices around her affirmed her exact sentiments. It's just a bloody phony front put out all this while. She finally managed to force herself to apprehend that one year is perhaps viewed as unworthy at all to him. Again & again she wondered, had it always been a one-sided affair all along? How easy could one let go of one's lover just like that!?

He, the best she's ever gotten albeit his stubborn, ruthless decision for a separation. Perhaps he's long moved on, with a new, beautiful girl in his mind. Perhaps he's living in such divinity/bliss right now, ever since she had he finally, happily managed to pull away from his side. All she could do now is wait. Wait for that fateful time, the time to heal this excruciating wound completely. Perfect.

Come what may, those beautiful memories that they've had shared together in this whole length of amourship will always be engraved in the back of her mind. Hence, thanks, with all her heart. Goodbye.

P.S: WTF SO CHEESY SO CORNY
P.P.S: I FEEL LIKE WRITING SOME SHIT OUT
P.P.P.S: BASED ON TRUE REFERENCE GO FUCK OFF.

Cheatsheet

2008-02-08T08:00:00.000+08:00

Friendster Horoscope for February 8, 2008
Capricorn (Dec 22 - Jan 19)
The Bottom Line
Today, you'll be feeling good when you are able to come to the rescue for a friend.

In Detail
Sometimes, it isn't totally obvious when you have made progress in a relationship.
The other person doesn't give out grades, so it can be hard to tell if you've become more important to them or not.
There are only, from time to time, little tests.
Today, you'll be feeling good when you are able to come to the rescue for a friend at the very last minute.
You will prove that you are dependable and generous -- in short, you'll prove what a good partner you can be.

. . .

WOW is this some kind of a joke or something? Right, what delusional reading! Tsk.

And it's that time of the month yet again.
Only now it's more of a histoire. 8th feb. 8th feb.

A piece of my mind

2008-02-06T18:17:00.000+08:00

We are so caught up with life that we rarely stop & look around us, appreciating the people around us, appreciating the things we have.
When was the last time we praise the significant someone?
When was the last time we give amourish salutations?
When was the last time we truly feel the presence of a person and appreciate the presence?
Why do humans only say the good things of the person only when he or she is gone?
Why do humans confidently express far-fetched assurances on which expectations are to be based, without even thinking two hoots about the consequences first?
Why do humans take love too lightly?
How do humans define a true commitment?
Do they even try to stop & ponder all of these possibilities before even taking a step further in their lives?
Have they ever thought that once they fail to fulfill a promise, they totally discreetly condemn/betray themselves on such a thing called trust?
How do humans change within such a shockingly short period of time?

You're ruthless. You truly are. One year, and now you're saying this.
Lies. Lies, lies, words, words & more lies!! WHY? I was left unknown despite those dubious statements which I count as nothing more than l-a-m-e excuses. No more of that spark? Not getting enough attention? Please. There's more to this, isn't there!?

You are nothing, but a mere disappointment.

Give me the old enthusiasms back,
Give me the ardent longings that I lack,
The glorious dreams that fooled me in my youth,
The sweet mirage that lured me on its track,
And take away the bitter, barren truth.

There is seductive shimmer on the horizon of life.
Within it lies the promise of love, the joy of fulfilment and the tranquility of peace.
Approach it with great care, for it is as fragile as a mirage.

Love shall be a subject of the past for now and will simultaneously be in the near future. I need the time to scout the true, fresh definition of trust & faith- the two elements of which sabotaged my naivety cruelly all this while.

Why are we in solitary, despite the company.

FUCCCCCCCK

2008-02-02T22:56:00.001+08:00

Indian wedding for today. Wow I never knew I had many of such relatives. They have a funny nickname for my nanny- "kak ling", in which 'ling' stands for keling(is it the correct spelling?). wtfffff haha.

. . .

I'm feeling blue still. Especially after logging in to that fucking website. It's like I've been through 1 year of fucking nothing. WTF SIA WTF I NEED TO VENT THIS ANGER/FRUSTRATION OUT. WTF! YA BE MERRY HAPPY SINCE YOU;RE BLOODY SINGLE GET YOURSELF A NEW GIRL SINCE YOU WANT BLOODY ATTENTION 24/7 AND GO FUCK WITH HER JUST GO FUCK OFF. I HATE YOU LIKE SERIOUSLY LA I NEVER KNEW YOU COULD BE SUCH A HEARTLESS JERK :'(

Okay I'm really angry right now. And super teary.

P.S: Bear with me okay. These cliche posts. Can't help it
P.P.S: I just wanna hear that three magic words from you but I guess, you dont have even the slightest shit feeling for me, do you? WTF SIA

Ego-induced homosapiens

2008-01-30T19:30:00.000+08:00

One-liner message. Laidback tone. What does it show?

. . .

I didn't enjoy shopping at all just now. Now what are the odds of diana not enjoying a splurging trip with her beloved mother? I was bloody cranky till mum got her mind-scanning mode on & asked me 1001 questions, god. Give me a break. I.cannot.hold.this.facade.anymore.do.you.get.me?

. . .

And I saw ariff, but I pulled a long face. Gee, he must be thinking that I'm bloody arrogant, tsk. Right. How random can I get.
. . .

On a brighter note, yesterday's outing to town's loved, right ili? Diana's like a damsel in distress, haha. In just a couple of hours, I got myself two zara(kids) t-shirts plus a floral dress(my belated bday present from ili!), while ili got cute briefs from cotton-on, tsk. Headed to borders to browse around & oh goodness golly, those paperchase stuffs are like a must-grab! Orgasmic.

Thanks for such a wonderful day, you bitch! Swoons.

. . .

Gotta meet liyana soon. It's been too long since we last met, oh my god.

Saviour-to-be

2008-01-28T22:40:00.000+08:00

I can't wait for friday!

Please don't take words ever too lightly, will you? Think twice before you speak(text)

2008-01-28T00:41:00.000+08:00

Okay I'm starting to get paranoid over things now. Really. I have so many why-s & what-ifs running in my head that I got myself doing some research on some website. Oh my god. And the feeling's got even worse.

Why the sudden change of heart? Am I replaced in your heart or what?

Cross-breeds

Here I go again.

Worried

2008-01-26T20:28:00.000+08:00

Cringed when I got your message. What does that mean?

I refuse to think of the implications. I just don't want to.

Time out

2008-01-24T22:24:00.000+08:00

Okay forget about fear (it's bleeding over!). Case closed.

It's a different issue altogether I'm talking right now. Now, I'm like sort of angry, tsk. Affairs of the heart, I shan't divulge.

Why are we in solitary, despite the company. Oh well.

. . .

Plan B: Gotta get busy, skip porter, move on to perhaps admin or sales.
P.S: That would steer such dubious issues off the mind. Screw all of them!

JAE Craze

2008-01-24T21:45:00.000+08:00

Oh my lord. Okay. Regain your composure, diana. Take a deep breather, yes. Breathe in, breathe out.

Know what? I've just finished submitting my jae online registration. Ya.

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I'm scared. I really am. All of a sudden I feel like screaming(crying) my heart out. The feeling's beyond description. Damn

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I hope I've made the right choice. In the name of a bright future ahead. For time's sake. (I don't want to waste my time again. One year is enough- more than enough, in fact)

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P.S: I was so paranoid that I frowned throughout the whole duration of registration

P.P.S: Screamed at the bloody router for being so inconsiderate too (the wireless connection kept going off! I was fortunate though to have lady luck on my side- I managed to complete filling in the precious application stuff within the stipulated time given).

P.P.P.S: I printed not one, but two copies of verification slips. (Told ya I was doubly paranoid) Just in case. Okay what the fuck, diana.

P.P.P.P.S: Yeah, gotta admit that I was stupendously senile at that point of time. Truth is, I'm scared la. Seriously. Did I make the right choice for myself?!

P.P.P.P.P.S: Yes I did. I think I did.

Okay shut up, whores. I need to meditate. Now.

Fun (:

2008-01-23T00:56:00.000+08:00

http://www.myheritage.com/collage

Whores' week out

2008-01-20T23:36:00.000+08:00

VCH

arab street

Met them sometime/(s) this week. These bitches never fail to brighten my day! Hugs.

. . .

Out with family yesterday (as usual, since it's a saturday), to dad's favourite shopping spot- vivo city. The little brat got herself not one, but freaking two apparels from zara kids! Lucky her. I didn't get such stuffs when I turned eleven (or did I? Can't recall). To play fair, mom got a pair of hoop earrings plus a ring for me & sis, a cute hairband- all from F21 (they're so irresistible!!). Ya, and she got herself a tunic from that store (okay judging from that, I don't see any justice being done here, mom. Roar?!).

I love yesterday, anyhow! Family outings are extremely loved, seriously.

P.S: Change of mind. I think I love myself now.

P.P.S: Okay diana, what the hell

Fugly post

2008-01-19T12:44:00.000+08:00

Been feeling sad of late. Don't ask me why, it's the same old issue again. Tsk. I can't help but think that I'm like one of God's ridiculous mistakes. I'M SO FUGLY I CAN'T LIVE WITH THE FUCKING FACT AND I HATE MYSELF. I really do, I swear.

Sorry for this stupid immature cliche post btw.

. . .

Cheering myself up with some survey. Etc

1) Hi, my name is:
diana

2 ) When I'm nervous:
i don't dare to look up. i feel butterflies in my stomach

3 ) The last song I listened to was:
a woman's worth

4 ) If I were to get married right now
the best woman/man would be:
raimi

5 ) By this time next year I'll
be:
dont dare to predict

6) I have a hard time understanding:
myself :(

7 ) If I won an award, the first person
i'd tell:
him

8) My favorite hair style is:
wavy

9 ) My middle initial is:
u for ugly

1 0 ) This Morning:
i showered with hopes of those blues to be washed away, fast

11) Last night I was talking to:
him

12) If I was an animal I'd be:
a bat. ugly & blind like one.

13 ) A better name for me would be:
idk. i'm loving my name still

15) Tonight I will:
cry in my sleep

22) When were you born?
8th jan, unfortunately

PART 2: THE FAMILY

23) Parents: married or divorced?
married. happily ever after

24) Are you an only child?
no

25) If you have siblings are you
oldest, middle, or youngest?
the eldest

26) Which parent do you get along with
best?
mom, frankly speaking

27) Do you have step-parents?
not & never

PART 3: THE FRIENDS

28) Do you have more than one best
friend?
ili sakinah's the best, i hate to admit. haha okay kid. <3

29) What do you like to do when you
are together?
we do everything under the sun

30 ) Do you share the same interests?
almost

31) Which friend can you tell
everything to?
everything? ili

PART 4: YOUR PERSONALITY

3 2) Do you have low self-esteem?
lower than low, i'd say

3 3) Do you get depressed about things
easily?
yes

3 4 ) Are you happy right now?
no

PAR T 5: APPEARANCE

35 ) Are you comfortable with the way
you look?
no

36)describe your hair?
i hate my hair. it's beyond description

3 7) How do you dress?
idk

38) Were you a strange child?
i have no idea

P ART 6: RANDOM

39) Are you scared of growing up old
and alone?
i guess

4 0 ) What are you wearing?
shirt, shorts

41 ) Own any pets?
no time

42) Ever been thrown out of a bar?
havent been to one yet

PART 7: THE OUTDOORS

44) Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?
it all depends. on mood.

45 ) favorite season?
summer

46) Do you like walking in the rain?
no

47) Do you like thunderstorms?
abhor

48 ) Ever peed outside?
no

PART 8: FOOD

49) Are you a vegetarian?
hell no

50) Anything you absolutely could eat
forever?
yoghurt

I love surveys

2008-01-14T22:37:00.000+08:00

1. Let's start with your name?
* diana

2. What do you think about smoking?
* losers. dubious fad. attention-seeking. bad for health. jammed sexual arousals (okay wtf i just make tt up. but its logical, isnt it?)

3. Do you open up to people easily?
* no

4.Whats your favourite drink?
* juices are the bomb

5. What is one thing you question a lot?
* about my future

6. Do you lead people on?
* idk

7. Are you married?
* not really

8. Have you ever told someone of the
opposite sex/same sex you loved them?
* it's him (not them). and yes i have

10. Do you miss someone?
* yes. loads of someone/(s)

12. Are you single or unavailable?
* open to mutual friendships

13. Are looks important?
* besides charisma, looks are as much as important, i guess

14. What are you wearing just now?
* top & skirt

15. Are you mad at someone?
* nah

16. Are you taking anyone for granted?
* i have no idea

17. Where do you keep your money?
* my purse

18. Would you kiss the last person you
kissed again?
* which one of them are you refering to? ;p

19. Would you rather sleep with someone
else or alone?
* alone. pretty aggressive on bed

21. When did you wake up this morning?
* half past 10

22. Quick, say a line from any song:
* pop the glock, the glock you pop (damn you got me started!)

23. How was your day?
* FABULOUS

24. Do you live near a friend?
* yes

25. Are you scared of spiders?
* neutral

27. Do you believe in love?
* i do

28. How old do you want to be when you
have kids?
* ??!!

29. What do you know about the future?
* that i'm gonna be studying in some poly

33. Do you believe everyone deserves a
second chance?
* precisely why i choose for a withdrawal- so no

35. Most hated food?
* mee rebus

36. What is a major pet food of yours?
* you mean pet food or pet food? i don't get you

37. Do you wish someone would call you?
* like always. but he's busy, i know

38. Do you miss your childhood?
* very much yes

39. What's something you wish you
could understand better?
* myself

40. If someone doesn't like you, it's
usually because?
* ??!! i don't care what they think of me. such losers

41. What are you excited about?
* sleep

43. Kissed someone in the last half hour?
* no

44. Have you lost friends in the past?
* yes

45. What did you do four days ago?
* forgot

. . .

1. What would you do if your ex just
showed up at your house right now?
which ex?

2. What describes your relationship
status?
in a r'ship

3. Where are you?
homebound

4. What's the last TV show you've seen?
the golden path

6. What is your favorite animal?
no particular favourites, but cats are uber cute!

7. Who have you thought about most today?
job interviews

8. Do you carve pumpkins every year?
??!!

9. Color of your underwear?
red

10. Color of your shirt?
black

12. Who's on speed dial?
none

13. Honestly, what would you rather be
doing right now?
sleep

14. What's your favorite season?
summer

16. Are you a bad influence?
who are you kidding with

19. Would you do anything for someone else?
that really depends, sweetheart

20. Have you ever been called a bitch?
yes why

21. Have you ever eaten pizza with sour
cream?
no

24. How big is your room?
not an interior designer, not a construction worker, so

25. Do you ever think people hate you
for filling these things out?
who cares

26. Does your best friend have a
myspace?
yes

27. Whose page did you visit last?
forgot

28. Last time you went out to dinner?
jan 12

29. Who is your favorite character from
friends?
dont care

31. Do you have your senior yearbook?
yes why

32. Do you want to kiss anyone right
now?
yes yes

33. Do you have one or more N*sync
CD's?
wtf no!

34. What did you do last night?
dreamt

35. Favorite TV shows?
idk

36. What's your name spelled backwards?
anaid

37. Do you have a song by Kelly
Clarkson in your itunes library?
yes

38. iPod or Zune?
samsung

39. Do you watch Family Guy regularly?
haha no. not much of a fan here (unlike someone)

40. How do you feel about reality
shows?
fine?

41. Do you read trashy romance novels
often?
OH YESSSSSSS

43. What's the last thing you bought?
skirt!

45. Whats in your CD player right now?
which era are you living in, sucker?

46. What's your favorite movie?
no particular fave

47. What's another favorite movie?
read qs46

48. Do you believe everyone has a
soulmate?
yes

49. Can you sing?
want to judge? you'll be amazed

50. Do you play any instruments?
trombone! harmonica, recorder

51. Have you ever been to another
country?
yes

54. Have you ever been to South America
or Africa?
no

55. Do you know how to knit?
a bit

56. What do you want to eat right now?
nothing!

58. What are you doing right now
besides this survey?
yawning

60. Baskin Robbins or Cold Stone?
=.=

61. Math or English?
english

62. Facebook or MySpace?
none

63. G-rated or R-rated movies?
x-rated. i'm 18

64. Rather fly across the states or
drive?
fly

65. Batman, Spider man, Superman, Hulk,
or Silver Surfer?
invisible woman

66. What's your favorite Disney movie?
ALL! esp fairytale stories. such darlingss

67. What Cell Phone Service do you
have?
singtel

68. How many beers get you drunk?
just 1 rootbeer can get me sick (i never fancy carbonated drinks fyi).

69. Mood?
sleepy

Part I

2008-01-13T21:50:00.000+08:00

What Diana Means

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Creamy day

2008-01-13T01:51:00.000+08:00

trying out the dress!

wtf i look like a shitty moronic freak. okay we're tired

cake!

One of the best belated birthday surprises I've ever gotten! Okay since it's from the boy, I gotta say that YES, it's indeed the BEST surprise I've ever had in my entire life! Though I must admit that I smelt something fishy going on before that (with the weird hindi conversation with afrizal and all), but I love it! The cake, the lovely dress, everything. Thanks alot, honeeeeey.

P.S: Lol, extending my thanks to afrizal & raisah for making this wowifying surprise to happen almost flawlessly too! You guys are love! (Okay, okay- and you too lah, raimi hehehe!) YAY!

I'm legal

2008-01-09T08:07:00.000+08:00

I'm eighteen-years-old already, wowifying! Thanks a lot for wishing me guys, be it via comments page in friendster, msn, phone call or text message. One of my best birthdays ever, I'd say, hehe. Especially when afiqah surprised me with her cuteee rendition of birthday song (loose notes here & there, but like it so much). Love!

P.S (my college girls): Sorry I didn't hit college ytd to meet you people. But rest assured I will meet all of you soooooon! 'promised me a present, remember? *eyebrows! Fix a date quick, y'all. Missed!

. . .

Can't wait for saturday evening! Are you planning a romantic candlelight dinner for me? Haha!

. . .

Trying out livejournal for a change lately. Check out the link above.

P.P.S: I prefer blogger to eljay though

. . .

Booking for driving theory test soon. Pretty excited for this, but o my lord- I just realised that I'm old! Old enough to get a driving licence. Time really flies.

Anger & Angst

2008-01-02T20:05:00.000+08:00

Okay my current civics tutor called daddy this afternoon to ask about my absence from school today. Sarita! Why didn't you tell her that I can't be bothered about the damn school anymore?! Messaged you like twice! Roar. AAAAAAAAAAARGGGGGGGGGGH! AND BLOODY HELL, NOW I GOTTA/MUST REPORT TO SCHOOL TMR IN FULL UNIFORM & PROPER SHOES TO SETTLE BLEEDING ADMIN STUFF. WTF. I'M SO ANGRY!! URGH.

So most people that I know've been asking why I wasn't in school today. Even those whom I seldom talk to enquired about me (which is weird, considering that I'm quite low-key in sch). Poor Ili was forced to answer those questions over & over again like a reporter, as what she claimed. Comically funny situation I can picture now.

Sigh, sigh. I miss all of you! Especially you, ili- you biotch.

Not YOUR average woman, boys

2008-01-02T06:46:00.001+08:00

Have I been a meanie to guys all this while, or am I just being wise & (too) straight-forward (however bitter) towards them all? Slapping truth after all the flirtatious/scandalous conversations. Mhmm. An authentic example of how a vixen's like, am I? Oh who cares. You've all fallen on the wrong target, it seems.

Your pain, my thrill- have you ever heard of that? Sounds sick, but I LOVE the phrase. Yeah, one of the principles that I hold on to for decades. Tsk

. . .

Happy schooling to all. Happy decaying at home to me. Fine, I need a bleeding job to tide over freaking time, ugh. Hunting for one sooooooooooooon, so goodbye!

P.S: I love this song! It's so meaningful! Faved since 290409 months ago. Then I sang with Isa. Those were the times. :(

P.P.S: 'My new year resolution is for u to go to the course u really want to get into and be happy in it'. So sweet right, wtf?!! Okay I swear I'm deeply touched with that, nasri. (I didnt type this for nth, y'know) Thanks a lotttttttttttttttt okay :) Rest assured I will, yay. Same goes to other new year well-wishers (particularly lovely you! and close college friends too).

P.P.P.S: WTF ili wants me to meet her during her breaks, like around 11-12pm. I WANT but I don't have the heart to go there, no. So no. I'm sorry, best friend :( After college hours okay b. Sayang kau <3

Bulletin

2007-12-31T10:23:00.000+08:00

One ; Who was your last text from?
* the boyyyyy

Two ; Where was your default picture
taken?
* room

Three ; What's your FULL name?
* nurdiana bte hasim. hahahaha wth

Four ; Your current status?
* in a r'ship

Five ; What is your current mood?
* partaaaaaaay

Six ; How old are you?
* 17 turning 18 soooooon!! 8)

Seven ; If you could go back in time
and change something, would you?
* be my guest! kjfdsjgh

Eight ; What's your favorite colour/s?
* purple, pink

Nine ; Ever had a near death
experience?
* not really

Ten ; Something you do a lot?
* sleep. pig-sleeping

Eleven ; Who can you tell ANYTHING
to?
* loved ones. ili esp.

Twelve ; Name someone with the same
birthday as you.
* i forgot

Thirteen ; If you could have one
super power what would it be?
* be invisible. like jessica alba, my sis (inside joke! ;p)

Fourteen ; What's the first thing
you notice about the opposite sex?
* psychologically speaking, their body movements. they tell a lot abt you!

[Fifteen] Favorite season?
* winter

[Sixteen] Do you still watch kiddy
movies or tv shows?
* ya, both

Seventeen ; What are you eating or
drinking at the moment?
* drinking water

Eighteen ; What language do you speak
* english, malay, spanish, arab. ya.

Nineteen ; Describe a lesson in life
you learned recently.
* failing is gd (fairul said so)

Twenty ; Do you have any tattoos?
* no. too hot for tattoos

Twenty - one ; Who was the last person
you hung out with?
* the cute lot- dyna, halif, fairul & darren

Twenty - two ; What are you thinking
about right now?
* 2008

Twenty - three ; What should you be
doing?
* shower

Twenty - four ; Who was the last
person that made you upset?
* myself

Twenty - five ; What is the last movie
you saw?
* i forgot

Twenty - six ; Do you like working in
the yard?
* have i got a yard? no i havent so idk

Twenty - seven ; Who is with you?
* them girls

Twenty - eight ; Do you act different
around the person you like?
* different, as in? i'll be true to myself(them as well) once i'm with the company i'm comfortable with

Twenty - nine ; What is ur natural
hair color?
* dark auburn (okay wtf)

Thirty ; Last time you were really
happy?
* ytd. cooking is joy! wanna have a taste of my honey-glazed chicken wings?

2007-12-31T10:16:00.000+08:00

By the way, don't you think Bilawal Bhutto's hot? I think so too!

Life afresh

2007-12-31T09:32:00.000+08:00

Oh my lord. Time flies so fast, and here I am lazing around on the last day of 2007! Sigh, 2007. Frankly speaking, this year's brought about countless memories that I can't simply forget. The friendships that I've forged in college, the more than often traumatic experiences I've had with the tutors, our (ili & i) secret affairs (close to, LOL. okay kiddin) with the hot vp, (of course) those humiliating moments when I was forced to cry- no thanks to bloody failures, my soon-to-be former civics class 07A07, everything! :/ I'm gonna miss this year badly, I swear.

Oh, dang. Speaking of which, I gotta report to school tomorrow to submit some bloody form! Bloody hell. I've just screwed the prologue of 2008. Fancy me returning to sch on 1st Jan, when I've supposedly vowed to myself to never, ever loooook at the freaking building each time I pass by the aforementioned, let alone STEP INTO IT. Urgh!

P.S: Pray that I don't bump into effin biatches. Fuck them.

Mhmm. New year resolutions? Good grades! Everlasting love! Confidence! Ya. Short and sweet. Lazy to elaborate further.

Realised that I've been megafucking lazy of late. "What happened to the old Diana?!" - quoted by nasri. Bucker up, Diana! (PSSTTT. I think I can make it for next yr! HEHE!) Okay, for the first time in decades, ~~I think~~ I foresee a ray of hope in the near future. (Shut up, bitches, it's rare for you to see me being this optimistically optimistic, sajfhsektur!) Tsk. I can't wait for April. I CAN'T WAIT FOR APRIL, YOU HEAR ME!?! LALALALA 8)

P.P.S: Sorry, can't make it for picnic :(
P.P.P.S: Celebrating with family! How I love them all <3
P.P.P.P.S: But I'm gonna miss YOU! :((

Behold

2007-12-17T01:13:00.000+08:00

Tasha sent me this (re:below)! I swear they all tally with my personality! (Okay except for tt good-looking part though. It says "Tends to be good-looking". Tends. Tends. Tends. Guess I'm an exception in that case. How cute hahaahaha)

CAPRICORN - The Go-Getter
Patient and wise. Practical and rigid. Ambitious. Tends to be good-looking. Humorous and funny. Can be a bit shy and reserved. Often pessimists. Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be unfriendly at times. Hold grudges. Like competition. Get what they want.

. . .

P.S: Syara! Love the malay musical production & hey, you danced really well ytd :) So proud of you! People (like you) do change as time passes by huh? At least I can see that, hee! Way to go, babe!
P.PS: Liyana! You stole that quiz! Boredom attack again? Gosh I miss you, bitch! Meet you someday soooooooooooon! :D

LEND YOUR EARS NOW

2007-12-13T13:45:00.000+08:00

Latest need/(s):

My all-time missed locks!

I must be bored

2007-12-12T23:23:00.000+08:00

QUIZ I

1) LOVE IS IN THE AIR?
* no mood for romance

2) WHO IS THAT PERSON?
* actually kidding. my raimi

3) DO YOU THINK LOVE HURTS?
* no. but on the contrary, yes it does

4) DO YOU THINK THAT YOU EVER HURT
SOMEONE?
* yeah, why not. am one too full of vengeance here, fyi

5) & WHY?
* read above

6) WHAT KIND OF QUALITIES MUST THAT
GUY/GIRL HAVE IN ORDER TO ATTRACT YOU?
* everything nice & naughty hahahaha

5) LIKE TO LISTEN TO LOVE SONGS?
* hell yeah. i sang 'em all

7) HAVE YOU ACHIEVE YOUR GOAL THIS
YEAR?
* never. fuck

8) NEW YEAR COMING,SO WHAT'S YOUR GOAL
FOR YEAR 2008?
* confidence, confidence & more confidence! why, this has been my new year resolution since three years ago! a jinxed child, am i?

9) WOULD YOU EVER THINK WHAT YOU
WISHED FOR WILL COME TRUE?
* i wish

10) WHAT ARE YOUR INTEREST?
* okay this is so cliche, but i love to shop. what to do, im just a girl

11) DO YOU LOVE EXERCISING?
* very much yes

12) BEST PLACE TO BE PROPOSE AT?
* proposed, you meant? havent thought of that yet.
(told ya im not in the mood for love talk! tsk)

13) ARE YOUR WEDDING BELLS RINGING YET?
* skip

14) WHERE WOULD YOUR WEDDING BE HELD?
* SKIIIIIIIIP

15) WHO DO YOU THINK UR BRIDE/GROOM?
* o my lord

16) WHAT'S YOUR HABIT?
* reading (yes, it's been a habit since ive been declared a college retainee! a lil too late huh? mdfk)

17) WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE CARTOON
CHARACTER?
* me myself & i

18) DO YOU LIKE SOFT TOYS?
* fuck no!

19) ARE KIDS IRRITATING?
* actually yes! zomfg i cant imagine myself as a mummy. not yet

20) WHAT'S THE LAST BEVERAGE YOU HAD?
* plain water

21) WHAT'S THE LAST FOOD YOU HAD?
* bread for lunch

22) WHO DO YOU SLEEP WITH LAST NIGHT?
* none. gosh im loyallllllllllll (not unfaithful, hear tt). the makings of an angel, no? aww

23) WHEN'S YOUR BIRTHDAY?
* 8th jan

24) WHAT PRESENTS DO YOU RECIEVE ON
YOUR BIRTHDAY?
* none

25) ANYONE'S BIRTHDAY COMING UP?
* tasha's!

26) ARE YOU ANGRY AT SOMEONE/SOMETHING?
* yes

27) WHEN YOUR ANGRY,WHAT DO YOU DO?
* just keep mum on the outside- but raging like hell in the inside!

28) ARE YOU MISSING SOMEONE?
* guess i do

29) WHO IS HE/SHE?
* both he & she

30) DO YOU NEED TO WEAR SPECTACLES?
* no. eyesight's perf, no kiddin

31) WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE SUBJECT IN
SCHOOL?
* ive got three. can i rate them all?
1. malay lit 2. gp 3. h1 math
why? cos i passed the trio-mentioned subjects in the promos!

32) WHAT SUBJECTS ARE YOU GOOD AT?
* frankly speakin, malay lit

33) WHAT SUBJECT HAVE YOU REGRETTED
LEARNING?
* economics! geography! oh dont start

34) WHAT LANGUAGE ARE YOU GOOD AT?
* spanish( dont laugh. i am serious okay)

35) WHAT LANGUAGES DO YOU WISH TO
LEARN?
* arab, still

36) DO YOU DO HOUSE CHORES?
* oh yes, call me the housekeeper. i swear i cannot stand even a speck of dust on my table

37) HAVE YOU BATHE YET?
* duh

38) WHAT ANIMALS DO YOU PREFER?
* none

39) YOU'RE ALWAYS ASSOCIATED WITH WHAT
ANIMALS/BIRDS?
* bat! isa said so, damn you hahaha.

40) DO YOU WISH TO BE FAMOUS?
* no yes no yes no

41) WHO DO YOU WISH TO GET MARRIED
WITH? (ONLY CELEBRITIES)
* none. stop talking abt marriage!

42) ARE YOU GAY/LESBIAN?
* strictly straight

43) WHICH GENDER DO YOU WISH YOU ARE?
* none! i loveeeee being female!

44) HAVE YOU EVER THINK TO CHANGE YOUR
GENDER?
* no!

45) ARE YOU SEXIST?
* nah-ah. have you read cleo, few mths back? im so not a femi-nazi.

46) ARE YOU RACIST?
* haaaaaahahahaha if i said no i'd be lying!

47) DO YOU HAVE A PERFECT BODY?
* bloody no

QUIZ II

1. Are you a Bitch?
- part-time

2. Are you tall?
- 1.58m. you call tt tall?

4 . In your pajamas?
- pjs? no i dont wear pjs

5. Left handed?
- right-handed

LAST :

1. Friend you saw:
- clean forgotten

2. Talked to on the phone:
- ili, which's like a few days back. i neither call or being called upon
(??)

3. Person to text you:
- syara

4. Was today better than yesterday:
- nah. today's like any other day. too mundane

FAVORITE :

1. Number:
- what nonsense. none

2. Color:
- pink purple red!

3. Food:
- stop talking abt foooooooooood! im dieting

4. Place:
- home, besides lovely malls.

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:

Q: What was the first thing you did
this morning when you got up?
A: headed to the showers, duh

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
A: yeah

Q: What's the last movie you watched
in theaters?
A: enchanted

Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: cant rmb

Q: Do you smile often?
A: not really. people say i look fierce/un-smiley/unfriendly, hence the presumption

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: childish

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: idk idk idk

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
A: my rooooom where else

Q: Why did you sleep there?
A: cos its my rooom, duh?

Q : What was your last thought before
going to sleep last night?
A: nth

Q: What do you hear right now?
A: nth

Q: Does anything hurt right now?
A: itchy, yes- my legs. no thx to mosquitoes

TEN EMOTIONS

1. Are you missing someone right now?:
- yeah

2. Are you happy?:
- neutral

3. Are you sad?:
- i think so

4 . Are you bored?:
- yes

5. Are you excited?:
- for what

7. Are you single?:
- no

8. Are you tired?:
- yes

10. Do you have a crush on someone
right now?:
- nonononononono.

QUIZ III

First word/phrase that came out of
your mouth this morning?
* idk

Mom or Dad. Who do you like better?
* no favourites here. i love them all e same! :)

Mom or Dad. Who is more annoying?
* lol both

When do you usually sleep?
* 12am

How tall would you like to be?
* 1.65m. okay at least let me reach tt 1.6m mark, pls! have mercy on me, god

When you are using the computer, where
do you place your feet?
* the floor

Do you brush your teeth?
* duh

Have you thought of dieting recently?
* its been a daily routine

Do you like to wear white tees in
the summer?
* yes

What kind of people do you dislike?
* stuck-up bitches like you

Do you like people easily?
* nope.

Day or Night?
* latter

When do you want to get married?
* 25. okay whats with all this marriage goobledygook? im only 17, dude. long way to go

If you can go back to the past,
where and when would you choose to go?
* shut up. stop asking abt my past

Have you ever hit someone's chin?
* i think so

Where are all your friends?
* one in jakarta another in england another in aust another one at home and.........

What radio channel do you like
listening to?
* 98.7fm occassionally

On Valentine's Day, would u go and
buy chocolate for your friends?
* no. but i wanna celebrate vday with gfs next yr! how fun ;)

When you see your bf/gf hugging
another girl/guy, what would you do?
* strangle the bf, omg. what does he think hes doin? hahahahaha

Someone swears at you, what would
you do?
* swear back

When you get into a fight with a
friend, who says "Sorry" first?
* im quite egoistic, so that friend should say it first, not me.

Where would you go for countdown
on New Year's Eve?
* gotta discuss with 'em sooooooon, cant wait! dgfksjklsgjsg!!

Has anyone ever told you that you
look like someone?
* yeah. a lot of someone-s.

Down with luck

2007-12-10T22:37:00.000+08:00

I'm cursed.

(at least I think I am)

Vacation

2007-12-05T09:12:00.000+08:00

malay immersion trip with the mates spelt awesome, really. checked in at grand continental hotel for 4 days 3 nights. i'd two other roomies to share the room with, one a tpjcian & another's from innovian. but one shifted to the other room, & the big room's left for the both of us! holy schmoly lovely! :)

okay on the first night, due to the itch to shop, we girls (plus other tpjcians, like 13 of 'em) got together to lie to our teachers that we got some emergency shopping to do at tt nearby convenience store 7-11. after their consent, we straight away trottled along to megamall. ili & i led the way, and we're the ones that got disturbed by passers-by & pimp-alikes first. but nothing could stop us from SHOPPING! haha but to our utter disappointment, only starbucks & secret recipe's on the buzz on that night. the rest? closing in 30 mins' time. we ran through the last stores that were still opened, while others bought stuffs on impulse. very comical situation, if you're the witness for our reactions there. finished window-shopping at 1030 like tt, and our way back to the hotel was completely hilarious haha! we paranoid-beings raced through the pathway like hungry dogs for fear we got kidnapped by dangerous strangers (you never know), that one of us skidded & another accidentally left one of her slippers on the way home. hahaha. ili & i? we reached the hotel first, heaving sighs of relief & yeah, we sweat like pigs do. then, we got into sinful indulgence & bought chocolate cheescakes from the hotel cafe! goodness gracious! rich chocolate cheesecakes in the middle of the night, how senile were we- you just rank. grr. after tt we had our quick shower & we snored the night away.

second day was mediocre. we visited the rtm & they video-ed us, y'know! (did i tell you that we were in tv the next day, in some m'sian channel? superstars for the day, baby! i got camera-ed cos i was leading the students!) etc. bla3, then in the evening we had a talk with some author of some novel & after that had supper by the pool omg. very romantic indeed. then the horror happened. the four of us girls took a lift to our room with this mid-aged man, and guess what, we got somehow stalked & harrassed. damn the man, he actually call-pranked us thrice & claimed that he's our bodyguard & wanted to get into our room (okay my roomie & i shifted to another room tt nite)- oh my lord! called our teachers but the line's busy so we ended up calling the receptionist & they assured us that our safety's being taken care of by security guards placed right outside our room. that night was damn scary, really.

third day was very fine & safe. we're given only like 30 mins' grace of shopping at sungei wang (wtf) and we got so pissed with the tour guide, he left us just with just a mere cruel option to choose- to lie to our teachers again. that night we got three guys to tag along with us to sogo & guess what- history repeated itself. the store's closing in holy 20 mins' time! ili & i spent the night in the mall cussing like nobody's business & made a sweeping comparison between lovely orchard & pathetic kl. strong refusal to return to hotel made us girls (farah, ili, afiqah & i, plus taufiq) cabbed to shangri-la, hee! the place where nighthooters spent their night grooving away to the beat in pubs & the sort. SO FUN okay we didnt crash into the clubs but we walked past them & all that. we wanted to but afiqah's wearin a tudong! what a spoiler (lol, i cannot forget the joke that i made tt day ;) ). returned to the hotel about 12++.

fourth day came. headed to homestay at kampong haji durani. the journey to the village was completely sorrowful & filled with wild speculations, haha but hey it turned out alrite! no dilapidated buildings, no dirty rundown toilets, etc! spoilt brats, am i? oh well. i love my godmom & godpop. esp godpop. he's a hip daddy; he listens to sean paul HAHAHAHAHA! so funny okay. he's so in his 50's but his car's blastin to sean paul's when he drove us to the central area. not bad, haha! nasi ambeng for dinner. very delicious. the neneks cautioned us that unless we finished the whole meal up, we wouldnt get married. hehe we thus challenged ourselves who can finish it first. so funny! then, we recited a sajak to thank the villagers for taking care of us, and after that we're feasted with a kuda kepang performance. very scary! after that they taught us how to kuda-kepang. i volunteered myself, and oh my lord, it's bloody fun! this trainer, who happens to be a butch, loved to stick around me to show me the steps. ili said maybe she loves me, hahahhaa! but i had fun. back at the village, i screamed cos theres a bloody bat on my bed! hahaha! so funny. then i ran, screamed to godpop for help & he broom-ed the bat away. then i slept peacefully till the next day came.

fifth day we bid farewell to our godparents. super sad, and the godmom hugged us like mad, as if we're her real children. after the emotional goodbyes, we headed to tanjong piai resort, the chalet on water. apparently we had the nicest room, as so they claimed, that almost everyone of them girls knocked on out door just to get awed by how lucky we were to get the 'spacious, cleanest & most awesome room'. yeah, we had a cockroach crawling in between beds, and they called it the cleanest? oh my. spent a miserable night there djgsjdhgjk

sixth day i was so happy to wake up cos we could finally check out from the dirty chalet! after visiting some sch, we had our last meal at the resort (seafood! chilli crab! fried squid! cereal prawn! orgasmic xoxo) & checked out rite after tt. went to pineapple orchard & pineapple museum (idk why e hell did we go there cos its nth to do with malay lit), and ended up getting a lot of mosquito scratches from the orchard. then we departed to singapore. so sad! :(

okay that's about it!

that's ili sakinah btw. last day, on the bus on our way home. okay bye lovelies!

JHFDSJAKH

2007-11-27T05:35:00.000+08:00

Loads of huggies & misses going out to the lovely, lovely boy & my sevens! :s
Okay goodbye

Bond us

2007-11-25T09:08:00.000+08:00

I miss my kid sis already, aww. Yes, I'm missing the lil brat- her crazy antics & how she always muse about grown-ups & all. She's set off to kuala lumpur today for some hockey training (she call it the 'prestigious one'. Right) for 4 days 3 nights. Coaching clinics for 3 consecutive days & a friendly regional match versus their fellow m'sian hockey mates, hahahaha! Okay why am I telling the whole world about this? =.=" But really, I find her departure to kl just for some insignificant training very amusing. I mean, imagine if I were to be in her position. I wouldnt even care less to go for trainings here, what more travel beyond our national boundaries just for 'some further skills-refinement'. Okay fine, she's sporty (in fact, truly passionate about hockey!), while I'm not. "That's why. What do you know about passion & being sporty, sis? You don't understand" - quoted from kid sis. Zzzzzzzzz!

That got me thinking. Amongst the three of us sisters, I'm the most passive being of all! Not much of a compliment huh? We really differ in terms of personality, gee. Second sis is a super punctual person, no doubt of it (look, she's doing her holiday assignments now! i would've started my first in mid dec, if you ever ask me when to begin) & kid sis- very outspoken (truly opposite of what's me) & determined academic-wise, but a sucker for household chores! jsdjakfd.

Right. I must be really bored now. So there you go- a short profile about the sisters & I

. . .

I love enchanted! I love enchanted! A beautiful fairytale story indeed :) I love fairytales, no matter how childish & cliche the stories seem to be. Wee

Boredom Pt I

2007-11-23T01:32:00.000+08:00

1. A random girl approaches you
asking your name, you say..
diana (yeah diana, what else? i love my name. proud of it, haha)

2. What's the last thing you put in
your mouth?
grapefruit

3. What does your last text
message say?
"Dats e checklist dat moe gave. Cb. Mepek"

4. The last song you listened to?
torn

5. Who do you trust with your life?
loved ones

7. What do you say if someone tells
you you're gorgeous?
!???? idk.

8 . When was the last time you ran?
last week! on the treadmill- does that count, no?

10. Do you trust all of your friends?
no. very selective on this

11. Would you move to another state or
country to be with the one you love?
i guess i would

22. Where was your default picture
taken?
no default pic la.

24 . Honestly, what's on your mind
right now?
loads. i'm a confused being, havent you know tt

25 . If you could go back in time and
change something, what would it be?
study harder

31 . Favourite jeans?
my black skinnies! <333

41. Did you buy something today?
intimately beckham deo.

43. Did you miss anyone today?
yes i did! :( :)

44.Did you get in a fight with
anyone today?
not for now

47. Who or what made you cry?
idk

48. What are your plans for the
weekend?
idk idk idk.

50. Are you happy right now?
sleepy

53. Are you a forgiving person ?
yes no no yes. i settle for a no- so no, not really.

55. Have you lost a friend recently?
nah

57 . What are you about to do right
now?
snuggle under the blankets. night!

Despite the companionship, the amoreship

2007-11-21T14:55:00.000+08:00

Am I designed to be lonely?

Ah fuck

Good girl

2007-11-18T08:39:00.000+08:00

Ooooh! Fabbity fabbity fab. Succeeded in banning myself from consuming those cruel hi-carb products for three days lately! Yay me, yay me! Ahh.

Recap:
1. Urgently tasked on a detox mission now

(HALF-CHECK!)
2. No more junk food for you, no more!

(CHECK!)
3. 8, 8, 8, 8, 8, 8 Glasses of plain water!

(CHECK!)
4. STOP PIG-EATING CHOCS, YOU GUNDU

(BLOODY CHECK!)
5. Exercise Exercise Exercise

(QUARTER-CHECK?

I went to the gym last monday with ili though)
6. Love yourself, try <3

(CHECK, NO?)

. . .

Out with the boy to the airport in the recents. Checked out terminal 3, and our first experience at that place wasn't that spectacular- foreign workers & interior designers're everywhere to finish that whole lot of pending constructing. =.=" On the whole, the day is loved, really!

Over it

2007-11-13T20:53:00.000+08:00

Life afresh from tomorrow onwards. Worries aside, now let's think & plan ahead for a bright future, shall I? For the sake of my future, at least.

Hold up.
This cellphone. For a minute, I just feel like smashing it hard to the wall & all. You've made me feel badly neglected of late. In times of need & everything urgent. But, oh well. Who cares. I'm going with the flow for now. I can't be bothered anymore.

. . .

The college admin had booked mom for an appointment today. =.=" How dull & dry can a meeting be, especially when they talk about the code of conduct in school & that gist (the tone! they sounded like i was one slacker or sth, with a bad record of punctuality. i swear i wasnt one!) On top of that all, I must say the last part of the meeting was truly a fruitful one. Hot vp spoke to mom! Okay. Hmm. *roll eyes*

. . .

Gonna job-hunt after 2nd dec. Perhaps I shall ask dila for favour- recommend me a place in zara. Perhaps working could remedy this sickly mind of those unwanted burdens. Fingers crossed.

I'm fatigued. I'm fatigued of all this nonsense about making & thinking of wild guesses & then re-console myself time & again that I'm cared & loved for & that I have nothing to worry about & that I'm just being paranoid. Sometimes I wonder how you rank myself in your so-called list of priorities. Sometimes I wonder how you actually define 'Love' in your own words. Sometimes I even think that I'm mentally distorted, and that I'm a girl with a confused mind. I don't know. Fuck, I don't know.

Let go

2007-11-10T13:05:00.000+08:00

hahaha! sexy much? check out my flabby arms & bloated stomach! oh well. okay i'm too lazy to rotate this pic, pardon much.

Girls' day out with the two gorgeous girlfriends yesterday & it was indeed the bomb! Bugis, haji lane, town & skate park. Awesome brainwash (off the worries & the equivalent). Thanks much <3

I am but a sad song

2007-11-08T10:05:00.000+08:00

Behold- the most idiotic girl you've ever encountered in the universe.

Know what? I CAN'T MAKE IT!

Fuck. I'm crying now (again). Never felt this way before. Fuck.

Thanks o reality for making me feel I'm not worthy of everyone.

Nothing can change this perspective of mine.

The fact is I'm a real sore loser.

Indeed, I am.

Broke the news to them; he went speechless; she screamed

"QUIT EVERYTHING! I KNEW IT. JUST QUIT EVERYTHING"

Too painful a confession to make. Too humiliating.

Begged her for another chance but the outcome's pathetic.

Maybe I'm just another bummer to you. Fuck.

To mention that I'm all over it would be a pure lie, honey.

Truth is, I haven't & I can't.

Thanks a lot for hearing my woes

& cheering me up ytd though <3

Much adored: Our song-sharing session

Cannot thank 07A07 enough for the memories.

Especially my dear bestie Ili Sakinah :(

The only bestfriend in the world that understands me fully, inside & out.

Afiqah, Aisyah & Taufiq, I'm gonna miss you too.

Suddenly "Such is life" ain't a phrase to be laughed/fooled upon.

Indeed, such is really life.

Thanks Isa.

P.S I'm going for another route, I guess. Sorry, Ili.

Maybe I'm not cut for it, as what our hot vp said.

Go away

2007-10-31T22:13:00.000+08:00

Friendster's gonna bloody hell be my arch enemy now.

Gosh I think I'm a fugly girlfriend, dont you think so?

Weird as it sounds,

I gotta admit that I'm fuckin angry with myself now argh!

Mad? Pfft wtf.

. . .

[POSTSCRIPT]

1. Urgently tasked on a detox mission now

2. No more junk food for you, no more!

3. 8, 8, 8, 8, 8, 8 Glasses of plain water!

4. STOP PIG-EATING CHOCS, YOU GUNDU

5. Exercise Exercise Exercise

6. Love yourself, try <3

[/POSTSCRIPT]

. . .

On a brighter side, I'm no longer in KIV list anymore for the malay immersion programme!

The joy. ~~Like~~ Love school. Kisses.

. . .

And for an even brighter, shinier side, we finally, finally met!

Cheers with love,

Bestie was SHOCKED

2007-10-27T07:49:00.000+08:00

Desperado plus Flirt equals ???

Takes two hands to clap, dearie. HAHAHA! The bloody news crack me up! XD

"Eeeeee yuck! That gave me goosebumps OMG!"

"Who told you to be so freaking nice to him?"

"???"

"WEE. Grab him for a fling if you want since you're that nice to him"

"No thanks eh"

. . .

Btw I kinda screwed dry run 'cause my PW tutor distracted me. Gee. But overall, it turned out fine & hell, I gotta research more to prepare myself for Q & A. -.-"

. . .

Ili's going green with envy 'cause our HOT VP smiled & said gd afternn at me when she wasnt there beside me!

P.S: Too mature already la. I'd prefer that aussino guy! Hahaha! Okay kid. Still got raimi

. . .

Promo results will be out on the 7th nov. Gosh.

Clock strikes twelve!

2007-10-23T00:09:00.000+08:00

AND HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY TO THE BITCHY BONDED ONE!

Pop-Art Life

2007-10-22T22:52:00.000+08:00

It's either this or that,
and i'm all desperate for the LATTER, big time.
Please God, please.
Let me pass through this stage
& go for the all-time yearned 2nd year.

. . .

Gosh. Mind's morphed into loving Alan Turing now ever since we're down with written report! Ah well, that sexy, gay geek- who can resist? o.o

. . .

Had a good time mocking on people with ili, aisyah & wyn last friday. Ah well. Heritage & superiority- that overrated twin-subjects that most often talked (more like show off) about. I LOVE THE BLOODY COMPANY LA! :D Had a good share of giggles with the awesome lot to complement the delicious LJS' grilled fish combo- thanks ya'll. Begone all worries & fury for that moment, yay woohoo cool shit

Think suicidal

2007-10-16T19:37:00.000+08:00

A day too heartbleeding to be remembered.

I'm leaving it all to fate to decide.

And it'd better be good, or I'll...

. . .

Motherfuckers shall be a new, refurbished collective noun for fellow ill-mannered, snobbish & uber self-centered individuals. I refuse to be disrespectful/looked upon as cheap, foul-mouthed lady but I can't be even more descriptive than that. So what if you're a bloody crackerjack, so what if you're sofa king whiz in everybloodything when basic things like manners are never recognized?

Hell no, I ~~don't~~ never crave for sympathy (like who cares anyway, you're no angel), but the least you could do is BE CONSIDERATE. Really, was on the verge of slapping them hard & force myself to cut the facade, get straight to the point about how furious I felt upon their imbecile actions.

But eventually, I've come to an understanding that childish actions are not worthy to be tolerated. Leave the absurdity; leave the childish-induced lot alone in their own world would be even better. (repeated roll eyes!) Saddening fact, tsk.

. . .

P.S: For having known such a patient girl like me, i'd say you're rather lucky. But never attempt to push too far; I do have my very own limits.

P.P.S: I don't name names here (spare the subjects the humiliation), so too bad if the above slaps you real hard. Literally.

Surreal

2007-10-15T09:28:00.000+08:00

Two days of raya, or worst said, even a day of raya, is ENOUGH for cruel weight to accelerate big time. And the worst nightmare ever, i couldn't stop eating those sinful, fattening & whatnot cookies. I've broken the record since bloody aeons ago- pigged out wholely 2-3 helpings of carbs & everything bad for each house. The horror! I can see mom glaring at me silently when I reached out for another helping but oh, I couldn't help resisting this temptation of mine. After one month of ramadhan..

These guilty pleasures, I gotta stop.

Shall not consume anymore carbs for today, I swear :O

. . .

How I hope that i'm on a long vacation now. Cackle, cackle Diana, you wishful thinker! PW's still long pending ahead, results're bloody out tomorrow, SL's still not done yet (see, so what if promo's ended? zzz). I long to work in the name of uber fat salary (i ~~want~~ need a real shopping spree for now!), but is there time? Gah.

Just for the fun of it!

2007-10-12T10:59:00.000+08:00

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!
Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.
You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.

You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable
Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life
By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.

Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.
Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.
No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

You Are a Coy Flirt

You may not seem like you're flirting, but you know exactly what you're doing.
You draw people in, very calculatingly, without them even knowing.
Subtle and understated, you know how to best leverage your sex appeal.
A sexy enigma, you easily become an object of obsession.

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

You Are 40% Extrovert, 60% Introvert

You're a bit outgoing, a bit reserved
Like most people, you enjoy being social
But you also value the time you have alone
You have struck a good balance!

Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?

The end?

2007-10-11T00:05:00.000+08:00

okay i'm done with the uber majors already. phew, but no phew! will be getting our papers back right after the holidays, and hell nooooooooo- i'm so not prepared for this. trust me, the degree of anticipation & fear in waiting for o-level results to be unveiled is nothing compared to promos'. why, the overall results determine whether i'll get to surpass that route to the next level...

asfdchsakf oh my god

Uber majors!

2007-09-27T00:43:00.000+08:00

28092007 - 10102007

"Give me mercy please, O God."

Sweet love of mine

2007-09-22T00:35:00.000+08:00

haji lane, haji lane, haji lane rocks my crotch! the super vintage apparels just turned us on till we visited there two days consecutively for this week. SOON LEE's SMOCKS- YOU'RE TARGETED TO BE PURCHASED SOON, YOU, AHH.

P.S: WE FINALLY MET :D
misses & loves!

Bleep bloop bob!

2007-09-18T20:30:00.000+08:00

okay ive been such an avid blogger lately =.="
and oh, oh, oh - SOCCER IS LOVE!
flutter high up and away o pre-exam blues (just for that moment) :D

Correction

2007-09-17T19:47:00.000+08:00

Fourteen days more to promos (correction)!
But still, ARGH DAMN IT LA SIAL.
i love myself still despite the uber fugly reflection yay woohoo

P.S: ms wee! thanks a bill for the lil postcard, yaw! :D

guess im not gonna give up on econs and work a dozen times harder. (WOW)

P.P.S: ili sakinah must help me in malay lit 'cause i bloody hell suck at it (hate to admit this, but yeah i'm a sucker for malay lit now, even malay. too disappointing) D:

P.P.P.S: yay we gonna play soccer during PE tmr! at last

I see the light

2007-09-16T00:32:00.000+08:00

Goodness gracious!

Checklist: I've studied math and geography partly, malay literature lesser than partly and zilch for economics.

P.S: Twelve days more to promos.

P.P.S: TWELVE DAYS

P.P.P.S: TWELVE

P.P.P.P.S: 12

Note to self: FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!

Terrible blues

2007-09-05T22:43:00.000+08:00

Chill pills wont fucking work for today. Mirrors never tell lies, and true enough- a much undeniably u-g-l-y reflection stood still and clear in the mirror as i checked myself this morning. Bad enough you already sabotaged the clinging self-esteem that has been constantly kept up effortlessly all this while. Would it hurt if you could just deceive me for once, O mirror? Why cant i be normal like the rest of you?! Sunblocks and creams, oh bother! Fuck hormones, fuck oil glands fuck everything, everythings not gonna change; i'm just wasting parents' bloody money and time.

Maybe i'm not just hypochondriacal, but i'm indeed a sick woman in reality.

Just leave me alone

p.s: maybe i'm born with it (there's no way i'm gonna type it out (i mean there's no need to mention, judging from the bloody face) 'cause if i do, that calls for a breakdown and sfjsadf. i couldnt accept the bloody fact, really. i just couldnt)
p.p.s: i refuse to make Mom cry again. i swear she's the one and ONLY soul who understands me fully. i love you , mom- i always do.
p.p.p.s: no, this phenomenon is certainly not a facade. for once, i'm not your average melodrama queen.

Holidays are here!

2007-09-04T00:24:00.000+08:00

but but, could we have 1 month's grace rather? sigh. ~~don't~~ never wish to face promos at the end of year, oh god. *begging for divine intervention to occur!*

so the mlep event cum seminar went well, i could see. ijc mlep students came! thanks a gazillion to mlep camp, we've already grown to bond with the friendly lot. and so i was the facilitator for ondeh-ondeh 1, alongside with ili & eliza. we were like teachers, leading them to speak up & everything- a very, very comical situation, i'd say (psl diana & ili mcm pham eh?). chose closest ijc mate, ilham & the outspoken taufiq(rjc) as presenters of our group, and they were awesome (well done, guys).
had a fantastic reunion with kindergarten mate afiqah, pri tuition mate zaf!, pri schmate syafiq, hmt classmates ridz & what's-her-name? (oh no, not amnesia again!) and lastly my wacky math tuition mate haziyah (OMG, LIYANA! RMB HAZIYAH? HAHA). how lovely

cant wait for fasting mth cant wait for hari raya and most importantly, cant wait to start promos despite my refusal to face 'em(WANNA GET IT DONE & OVER WITH FAST). nad project work and service learning ahhhh damn. influx of activites waiting for the class and me ahead, oh wow. so lookin forward to these

Hairspray

2007-08-24T00:40:00.000+08:00

been in a state of disequilibrium lately, majorly due to service learning (no thanks). the proposal's finally reached to a near-completion, yessa; and that wouldnt have been possible without ili being the one to start the ball rolling- thanks babe, you're LOVED (WET KISSED!) royal treatment/gratitude much? winks! frequent after-school meet-ups with sl partner, ali, turned out to be partly-bitching sessions somehow. the presence of ali's close mates like san, oni, zul and all enlightened our first session with their jokes, haha! truly comical

binomial distribution's awesomely complicated, but i managed to grasp the formula for a start, hurrah! guess 100%attention is gold especially during lectures, doesnt it? a pity i didnt realise that(i mean i do, just that i got ironically hyper during math lectures last time 'cause i hated the subject) till now.
p.s: math is liked now (not loved, nah-ah. yet)

some guy added me up in msn & got his hands typing into conversation with me in hindi- and i thought 'oh my god, thats a pretty bad bad BAD start' (slaps forehead). oh god forbid! i'm quite sfgsdajsajdakf, okay i shant go beyond this before i got sued (but wait,do i really really look like one? been feedbacked that yes i do! insulting much).
i replied 'kya he? i dont speak hindi la dey' right back at him. dont laugh (okay i just did. comically funny. thx to the boy for the knowledge shared, or i wouldnt have known how to reply -roll eyes-) hee

i musnt slack, musnt.
i'll mug hard, with full-blast mode, like totally
fingers crossed, hard (god, spare me from depromotion pretty pls).

p.p.s: get a life, childish morons.
('cause you give bitch a bad name)
p.p.p.s: mr ari's quite hot, dang (but dont get me wrong, i never relish on teacher-crushing, dont i, ili?) ;p

Say die!

2007-08-16T22:54:00.000+08:00

diana's been rather hotheaded lately (and not herself too), right? (i think so too)

Loathe-post

2007-08-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

shoot that ugly reflection in the mirror, someone. :(
(better still, just SHOOT the real self. hard.)

p.s: this thing is not getting anywhere. the irony of amalgamation
p.p.s: people change as they grow? pack of lies
p.p.p.s: such contradictory characters really test my patience, so never try driving me too far
p.p.p.p.s: attention-seekers totally suck. ROLL EYES/ SLAPS FOREHEAD
i'd be more than GLAD to end this camaraderie; what an insult to get involved with all the annoying, overly self-proclaimed mofos. please grow up, really.

Good gracious

2007-08-14T19:56:00.000+08:00

afiqah liyana gave me a postcard with a little note recently. how sweet! :) love you marpoah (it's not sarcasm this time, babe. trust me) ;)

p.s: AH K! rofl

can i resign from being a service learning leader? pfft. this shit's gettin on my nerves. it's either northlight sch or tampines river project, okay people? okay.

Loose wire

2007-08-10T23:27:00.000+08:00

And i'm beginning to love math now (GASPS!?)

Hello wonderdrug

2007-08-10T22:40:00.001+08:00

Heartbreaker

2007-08-09T00:35:00.000+08:00

persevere & work hard(er) for the upcoming promos, diana.

(kiss goodbye to my dream of being a TP oct-intake student. why, the courses offered are too limited & worst, neither of them matches my interest. zzzzzz!)

btw national day celebration at sch today spelt d-r-y, like totally- shant elaborate further. too sleepy/moody to hang around the malls with isya & all after all the mundanity ended. freshened up by a long afternoon nap, i popped by paragon around five plus to watch coral band's performance with wana, mj & idrus. hearing them play showdown for band got my mind walking down to memory lane- oh, the sweet & tangy moments. papa patrick's as cute as ever, esp with that new, fresh look (his neat haircut!). my juniors hugged me, aww- didnt see this, i'd say the warmest greeting on earth ive received in a long while, coming since i wasnt that active in the trombone section last time, or was i? exchanged a quick update with the awesome lot, and then off to cineleisure with my mates for dinner & then the malls for window-shopping/catching-ups.

i accidentally dropped a bangle while browsing for accessories in Topshop- and it broke into two! how deeply embarrassing, zomg. to compensate for the broken accessory, the cashier told me to purchase another one at the same price as the aforementioned. the kind soul, i ought to give you a noble prize for that, oh! :) a visit to revoltage's a true jaw-dropper! i'm so gonna buy that cardigan anytime soon, yaw!

goodnight earthlings

Leadership hooha

2007-08-06T21:39:00.000+08:00

Lethargy, lethargy and more lethargy attacks.

Why is there such a thing as SERVICE LEARNING? Sometimes, I just couldnt help but agree with the boy's view- we just couldnt bring ourselves to conform to forced voluntary work. Should voluntary work be forced in the first place? As much as i refuse to be selfish and all, i must admit that somehow compassionate-being doesnt run in my blood (i think). It defits the purpose of service learning if the drive's not there & sincerity and empathy cease to exist, doesnt it? jkgdhsfjhgjh jdsfhjksgh

Words coming out from a service learning leader. A round of applause, please.

Meadows

2007-08-02T22:56:00.000+08:00

Highlights of the week

#1 JX, Aisyah & Raisah's Birthdays. A big happy seventeen to the trio!
P.S: Forgive me for being a total late girl, but you don't mind belated presents, don't you? Grins!
#2 I always suck at Sit & Reach station for NAPFA test. Zzzzz.
#3 SPE periods are the ultimate bomb for now, yessa!
P.P.S: Mr Fiz spells C-U-T-E
P.P.P.S: I think I'm the epitome of spasm during PE, but who cares ;)
P.P.P.P.S: I gotta LOSE a little weight, yaw. Must. Sweat off those evil fats, diana!
#4 Math tutor wasn't present this whole week. Let's rejoice to this once-in-a-blue-moon occassion, my fellow math mates
#5 Wednesday equates to a grumpy day for this week 'cause of trivial hair issues. If I still refuse to dye my hair back to its basic color by next week, she's gonna send me for CWO. I demand for justice, really. The brownness is never that prevalent as compared to them in the other civic grps, hello? AHH the lagging one- sue her for fashion fiasco, please!
#6 Lethargy and more lethargy attacks this week. Project Work's like klfshgkslfhg( again).
#7 Analysing songs during malay literature was oh-so-FUN! Oh the passion; I want more
#8 Savouring the best part for the last: I met the boy for two consecutive days this week! Happiness. :)

Mass update

2007-07-24T19:35:00.000+08:00

Dyna's already left for england. You'll be dearly missed, lovely girlfriend (sigh, the memories..). A big loss to the clan, but hey, i guess syara's right- sevensome's gone international! And oh, there's always internet; technology does create wonders, doesn't it? The joy! Hope you'll have the time of your life there (mugging) in england, alright? All the best (:

1. i'm loving my room as each second passes (it's been revamped, baby!). victorian-based bedroom, oh the beauty
2. i cant help but bring up this cliche matter that school bloody hell sucks each day but FRIENDS, YOU MAKE UP FOR IT, DARLINGS. thanks a truckload, really
-pw's a killer jdsghjk
3. parent-teacher meeting's like the upcoming saturday. butterflies in the stomach, i can feel now. damn.
4. wednesdays rule my life for now due to early dismissal & of course, malay lecture!
5. i've been pig-eating lately. oh my god. watch your diet, diana. (weight's nearly 50kg!)

goodbye for now

2007-07-13T01:21:00.000+08:00

It's one in the morning, and I just finished the bloody econs report.

I passed 2.4km run! Omg, let's jump for joy, come. How ironic. It's always been a norm for me to retake fitness tests until now. HAH well done, diana!

Night, earthlings

P.S: Love today as much as i love you, hon! After the record-breaking separation, omg- i cant believe that i can actually miss you this much. Can't wait for the upcoming wednesday!
P.P.S: Today shall be the day of doom (Get your armor and shield ready, diana)

2007-07-08T01:05:00.000+08:00

HAH. I swallowed my pride just to get close to you, to catch things up like we always did a decade ago, but eventually, i ended up realising that those were just wishful thinkings. To think i still remember the little pact we made about us staying on as BFF- go figure (wtf)

Though deeply humiliated, i guess you're not worth of my time to get pressured about. I'll just have to move on and oh, to all pretenders and hypocrites, go f uck off. My Sevens, you still rock my world, forever! My college women, you're my next best people to share my joy & sorrows with! And most and the utmost importantly, my Turtledove who never fails to understand & love me like no one else does (it's our SIXTH already, baby!) (:

Life's a bliss with this wonderful company of people. I heart you all.

To lie behind the lie

2007-07-06T21:06:00.000+08:00

Lying through my teeth totally exhausts me to the drain. For god's sake, how must i vomit out the truth / failure to them? I'm too guilt-striken to confess, and hell- sometimes i wonder why oh why couldn't i catch up like those classmates of mine?

Simply said: I'm a dozen-times worth dumb
(Screw MYE!)

I'm speculating a disaster(for me) coming in the upcoming week. Help! :(

Blanked

2007-07-04T23:47:00.000+08:00

One restless momma, I am.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Fury

2007-07-03T20:05:00.000+08:00

School started off fine for today. Taufiq shall be my duet partner during our mundane period breaks, come let's! And oh, our new GP tutor, Miss Fernandez, isn't that bad afterall (and very sweet, too!). Napfa test's been postponed to next month, how lovely. A couple of weeks of training left to the bliss-NOT day and I'm like sjakfhjksdh- can we get this over and done with FAST? Dang.

Etc. I don't feel like going to school tomorrow and the day after tomorrow and the next and the next and the day after and -. Self-esteem's been decelerating at its fastest rate ever today; I'd better distant myself from the mirror..

P.S: I'm a little snappy at home
P.P.S: I'm not in the mood for little jokes.
P.P.P.S: I've been a very bad sister for today, I know
P.P.P.P.S: I just hate the horrendous me, so please understand

Drunkards

2007-07-03T00:16:00.000+08:00

Today's girls' day-out with ili, aisyah, dila, jannah and new friend, fee spelt awesome! Snapshots, snapshots and more snapshots please, baby. I couldn't have been more envious after seeing how tall fee is- dang! Another 2cm to certify herself as a runway model, AHH! That one blessed child, allow me to spank you- hard! ;) Aisyah and her pantyhose- oh the sexbomb, Ili and her endless retarded-induced antics, dila and my faved vintagey-binoculars sling bag and jannah with her 'stop it eh, d'. Oh, and we (aisyah & I) shared the cost to purchase these gorgeous clip-on heart earrings from topshop just to wear the pair as HAIR CLIPS instead. how innovative, an eccentric pair we'll make (just nod, will you).

Hallelujah for school tomorrow, dang

P.S: why oh why, baby? the little things that you do sometimes make me furious, you know! ahh. (but i still love you somehow)

Pending dream: A Linguist

2007-06-30T12:11:00.000+08:00

It's a pity that I dropped religion studies right after I settled PSLE. Arabic language is such a beau, oh!

(Diana, are you sick?)

Brain drain

2007-06-28T22:48:00.000+08:00

I love malay lit cum food-based camp! Baik Perakkkkkk ;)
Those IJC groupmates were totally quirky, especially Rusydi with his self-composed poems. Toyol masuk jail - what the hell? "Diana, what do you think of this poem. It's ..... Stop the crap, rusydi. Concentrate!" Tubagus Mochamad Rizky. "Apa kakak fikir adik ni duli?" With that deep indonesian accent, he sounded real good in our crappy skit! Right, afi? Yus. Sleepy, sleepyhead; i can't believe anyone else that could ever win me in pig-sleeping except for her, zomg! My whacky roomies- Afi, Aisyah (she's a migrant!) and Radhiah. You're the bomb man, esp afi for being so kind as to share her bed with me- i don't freaking dare to sleep alone, okay. And oh, was I sleepwalking the whole of two nights? Lol, but anyhows, just a tap or two, coupled with a soft voice "Diana, wake up and shower" wasn't enough for a pig-sleep being like me to wake up straight away, okay aisyah? ;)

There might be another MLEP outing with the innova people soon- and hell, i can't wait for that!

Kill bill (Vol II)

2007-06-20T00:02:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling a little suicidal and furious now. I'm already tensed up about the freaking MYE and... ARGH. Oh well, someone definitely needs prioritizing tips (or perhaps whoever really does prioritise whoever-whoever rather than me? Okay the melodrama. Or rather, that whoever rates me and whoever-whoever equivalently? Zomg, then what's the diff man) It just reflect how essential you are to one's heart sometimes, especially when it comes to this thing. I'm yearning to be rated in a higher degree but oh well...

Okay fine, I'm a little emotional here but who cares. Friendster does its job anyway, how fillial

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Friends are forever, boys are whatever shall always be our sevensome quote. (: Love the surprise bash and everything, oh my (though the whole process of planning the bash's equally irksome and reaching to a near-vulgarative state 'cause I/we want it to be perfect for her- the asset of this clique. Co-operation demanded!). Pending girls' outing: Night Safari (yessa!!) I hope we can make it as a whole. Fingers crossed,

Camp's up for tomorrow, damn. That spells a withdraw of me from 4/8 class gathering for tomorrow, oh! The huge loss =(
I miss us and itsy-bitsy of Coral (hate to say this but can't be denied any longer)

Turtledove

2007-06-11T20:48:00.001+08:00

Love our uber-long late night convo yesterday :) - it's been long
"Record-breaking! I could've had my pre-dawn meal!"

Right or wrong

2007-06-10T19:31:00.000+08:00

Awesome meet-up with the girls lately. Girl talk, catching-up but mostly, games! "If you're stupid, then you're stupid (re: some number game)"- I hereby declare that I'm dumb when it comes to the subject. ROFL! (: And never, ever, ever and ever include me in card games, I swear when it comes to my turn, I'll turn blur and etc, hence resulting in the starting-over of the aforementioned again. I'd find joy in watching people play, rather- thank you.

I respect my beautician, I really do. We bitched, and I just love our bitching sessions. "To boast about heritage is total gibberish!" Trust an Arabian & Pakistani mixed-blood lady to say that!

Inner heart says I've given up on studies already. The voice within's been constantly shrieking about the idea of joining october intake. Told Ili about this and she went "Ridiculous! It's not even MYE, and you're chickening out! Loser". Literally. Well, I think I need to talk to my parents about this. But the problem is, how to?

Moving on, yesterday's meeting with regards to PW was unsurprisingly and annoyingly reeking! Yes, as speculated. Groupmates were nearly traumatized, and that included me- zomg, did he ever bathe or something? This isn't one trivial matter for me okay- I'll go critical when it comes to odours.

Dead before the call

2007-06-08T01:47:00.000+08:00

Last-minute assignments really kill, i tell ya. And may god give me (or us) the strength to withstand his awesomely pleasant smell in the whole length of his lecture tomorrow. For hygience's sake, I strongly hope he's gotten his body scrubbed well with an ample amount of dettol tomorrow & brought cologne along so that he could spray it to every part of his body in every interval to eradicate (oops, okay no, at least control) that body odour of his. Oh, and a towel comes in handy too to wipe off that bucket load of sweat, and oh my god, most importantly, i really really pray he won't spit around whenever he talks. Disgusting innit! It'll sure be an earful, since we ignored his calls last week- not even a single one of us bothered to answer his call.

When's that blood test results gonna be out? It's been a week and three days since, and I've yet to receive any news about the gruesome thing. Fingers crossed,

Oh the joy- happy fifth to us us us!

Bliss effect

2007-06-07T13:32:00.000+08:00

Study-based rendezvous with him lately.

Late-night mugging. (plus a bit of camwhore? ((:)

Eh zizie, hahaha

Dust to flames

2007-06-02T14:23:00.000+08:00

Been having frequent outings lately. Have yet to start myself going for some proper mugging, damn. But I'm having a break now, from researching for this gp essay. Go figure- smoking & youth; how cliche.

Witnessing aunt in the unruly, sorry state yesterday made me realise how thankful & fortunate I should be feeling to God right now to have been awarded to live a life as good as this. To see her cry & cuss faith for the condition she's in now is totally opressing, and thankfully, I managed to contrain those tears from coming out ('cause I know it won't help). If that blood test I had in the recents hurt that much, what more a (and more) dialysis? Get well soon, love, and be strong.

Met raisah, afrizal & the boy( most importantly) lately. I was shy, wasn't I? Okay, but I must admit that that moment was truly alluring, too captivating. (: hawanbefewajdhnajsdjash (like okay, that's my definition of mushy- hahahahaha mushy's so not me! can someone teach me how to be romantic?)

p.s: dan was talking to manpreet while we took this pic

Suddenly, I remembered ili & aisyah yearning to visit the gym one of these days for some abs-perfecting. Come, let's! My weight's already reaching close to a what you call dire distress already: FREAKING 48 KILOS WORTH! I'm like as heavy as my mom la (NO!). And worst, i'm on a total sugar rush now and this has gotta stop, diana, you! Zomg zomg ZOMG

I'm brooding over my subject choices. Why did I ever choose geography & economics? I should've opted for literature and history rather. Fabulous. Oh, and I crashed into shahirah as well, and she was like "hey diana, maybe if you hate jc life so much, why not join poly? october intake!" Mhmm. Should I?

I'm missing my sevensome already!

Meet up sometime, honeys!

Infinity, and beyond

2007-05-26T10:20:00.000+08:00

Hail the month of June- it's the summer break already, HALLELUJAH! hsdgfhsjgfhsj

3rd sis has already turned ten on the 23rd (happy birthday again, sheg!). She demanded a psp for her present-to-be, but instead, i gave her a watch from happy house. Smile, baby- i'm not working, you know! No money to spare for such presents, yet. Love!

Zomg, i can't believe that our GPP(group project proposal) is nearing the EE (expecting expectations) mark. We're speculating for an AE due to totally last-minute research and all. Women, let's work out the final draft, aiming towardddddds EE, yaw- i'm already driven with enthusiasm la, yessa!

Argh. Moving on to the pathetically miserable innits that have been practically happening pretty much often than that of the good ones throughout the week in school, i wonder- can our CG get any worst? First, faith has bestowed us to get the purely strict & annoying teachers at the beginning of the term (i shan't mention whom), except for the awesome GP tutor. Of all lessons, we look forward to GP since she's the only patient tutor that we have. And, butttttttttttttttttt damn omg i can't believe this- she'll be leaving us next term for the sickening JC2s! And the aftermath? That NIE tutor-wannabe. The fact really hurt us that even the notorious girl in my class cried (rach, i can't believe still that you cried, but you did). We hugged her like she won't be in school anymore, and then we ranted on and on about the big loss- how tormenting

Melodramatic much? That's how much we love her, really

Ili, let's grind! Zizie, teach me more dance steps! Afi & Aisyah, come hear me mimic to stacie orrico's music again! Boy, the wackiness injected into me the whole week. (: I was high, because i couldn't take math & econs any longer. To hell with those, yeahhhhh

The trip to changi naval base yesterday was a sweaty and just a mediocre one. Should've tried the bungee jumping & banana boat ride, sjkhdsakjhd! Nevertheless, it was fine (my friends thought the missiles and ships were fascinating, but I gave them the -.- face. Not to my liking). The only highlight of the excursion: The duck ride

*More pictures coming up soon
TPJC runway! Enormous load of congrats to Aisyah H. for winning 2nd for the white tee design! Zomg, the champ model is a total beau; bet the guys will be drooling with blood with the sight of her. ;) Made new friends: dila and jannah. Disco after the event. "Baik Diana!" said azli, lol! Mr Ari was hot, wasn't he, Ili? Ended at ten. Intended to drop by gelare cafe near katong mall for the grad night, but i've been declared broke since yesterday afternoon due to constant splurging of good food in the newly-opened cafe in school (so i can't take cab already). Apologies 'cause i can't make it- but we can meet another day, can't we?

The boy's greatly, greatly missed

To the showers for now. bye

Prelude to vacation mood

2007-05-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

YESSA BABEY! it's officially the sexy holidays in uhm, five days' time? can't wait. bloody hell- i really can't! am already sick of geography lessons, really

dan's one step closer to being interrogated, gee. i cherish our friday (romantic hollandV huh?). but i'm gonna make a plea right this sec: let's not go there anymore, shall we? thank god i'm a patient girlfriend hahaha- you won't wanna see me flare up, i think. (:

oh, and Happy Seventeenth, dearest Ili!

Love

2007-05-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

HappyMother'sDay

to beloved momma! With Love,

p.s: damn, it's back to school tomorrow.

monday blues, here they come again

p.p.s: the boy's GREATLY missed!!

no thanks to hectic schedule. tsk

Them against me

2007-05-09T20:48:00.000+08:00

faculty test's due tmr, and i'm doomed to hell (no doubt) i'm worried sick about math especially, econs (Fucking duh), geography, pw... (like i think i can only count on at least malay lit & gp? wtf i'm a loser)

'doubt i can make it for the promos, like can i just quit everything and just hide under covers forever? i've made the wrong choice, i know i have.. the biggest mistake ever. if only i just heed their advice and...

it's been long since i last had had an emotional outbreak, with all due respect to stress. i wish i'm brighter. no matter how hard i work, i'm just there, not even nearing to half the distance to the finishing line. maybe everyone has their own limits afterall, and i've known mine already. i've known mine already.

and ccas, they worth a bloody hell THRASHFUL of my time. yeah fuck off to everything. i suck (and damn, look at me (i won't blame you if you refuse though). i look as sucky as ever still. shit the dubious syndrome's penetrating through me yet again)

school. sometimes i curse greatly at my non-amicable disposition. why can't i just adapt to new surroundings? am i that phobic? i can see the people around me changing, except ME. the whole real-self is pissing me off totally

it's good to bawl once in awhile. i'm so not (and will never ever) lookin forward to sch for tomorrow. i love fridays and i hate sunday nights and of course mondays and all

are they the confide-problems-with material? i doubt so, omg. i love my life

signing off with regret & remorse,
queen of the damned aka the dumberer

Coupled

2007-05-05T23:28:00.000+08:00

met the earrrrrrrlybird him (RIGHT!) national library was being a bitch just now- there's one section in the library where we aint allowed to bring in any of our possession, even highlighter pens (HAH). And the ground floor was totally packed, so it's absolutely impossible for us to mug, tsk! Plan C: coffee bean!

the newly-wedded pair afrizal & raisah joined us thereafter. studied for merely an hour and then giggled & chatted & took pictures all the way till about eight plus. etcccccccccccccccc oh the boy sent me home as well (once in a blue moon, you know! i was ecstatic).

oh right, i just realise all of 'em reside in the western part of spore except me. cool shit (so redundant?)

okay i'm sleepy already. raisah haven't text me up till now, bet she's already dreamin away. mugging will be resumed normally tomorrow morning (reminder!!*).

goodnight

Riding for a fall

2007-05-04T22:26:00.000+08:00

i saw syara (and vivien) in the bus on my way to sch today! oh, the joy- god i miss you, woman. glad to hear you're fine in school & stuffs, but sad because when she's about to bitch and sorts, the bus'd already reached tp! the Big loss, but fret not, 'shall meet soon for some bitching session, shan't we? =)

faculty test's up next week. in the name of success, i shall mug as hard as i could to improve, catch up and etc. i must pass, i must pass, i must (chanting mantra).. oh, and there's track and field meet in the upcoming wednesday. i'll be participating in the 12 by 1m relay and this dna trail, which i've no knowledge on what in the world's that all about (dude, i was picked out by random by the class house master who's also a slacker, so yeah). tp will be playing against mj & nj on tues, as so i've heard, so i might be dropping by mj with classmates to support our team players (applauds to diana- it's like once in a blue moon that she's in this bloody high sch spirit).
friends told me that my eyecandy was an ex-mutt. dudes, i can't see the logic, really- is there such a definition/term? once a typicalist (mutt), always a typicalist. etc okay diana, enough said about your baloney theory- you're typing shit here, yes.

mom's giving me the green light about tomorrow's rendezvous with him and in fact, motivating me to meet up with him on a regular basis for the sake of improvin the damned subject - math. (yes i told her i'm meeting him tmr to study) zomg, that was truly, authentically unexpected! words comin from dear mom, aww
p.s: musn't betray the trust she've had put in me

saw faizal & co on my way home window-shoppin with mom. one of my good friends. (: you're being missed, you! hot hair ahh

cherios

My bed's calling!

2007-04-29T02:13:00.000+08:00

mom & dad organised a thanksgiving function last sunday in our house, with the help of nan & dear aunt & uncle. relatives dropped by non-stop till about eight pm. camwhored with cousins aisyah, iyesha & sofea like there's no tomorrow. got interrogated by uncle thereafter, but fret not, i think i did maintain my composure. screw conservatism and the sorts, rahh. self-revealing intimacy talk with closest paternal cousin hidayat for the first-ever time (like i'm quite shy whenever i'm with the paternal relatives, see, so). my indian (HOT) & chinese neighbours attended the function as well. etccccccccccccc. moving on, sch's fine for the week, apart from the childish dispositions of some individuals i'd had to endure, i shan't mention whom. and dan had no hockey training to attend on wed! so, it's coffee bean cum study-based rendezvous for us and, uhm, but, i couldn't mug despite the still ambience in the cafe. dan really was a hardcore camgig, zomg, and double zomg- the encounter with that relative of mine & the boy was really a close shave! phew, fortunately they weren;t destined to meet, yet (not that i want to, anyway). oh and wow, library night spelt absolute boredom! yikes, if not for cheekens (& the significant task to settle), i wouldn't even be bothered to come but rather, meet liyana instead!! gosh, i miss our bitching sessions and of course, shopping dates. gotta find time for this next week (i sense myself decaying already dfajfhjahfjkeh idk why though).

saw ex-schmates at tamp while lunching with classmate aisyah. i don't feel 'em comin at all, dudes. arrogance- look who's talking (hint: fatass). etc! -.- why didn't nas say hi to me? record-breaking: i did it first, wow

that's it.
i'm down with fucking PI now.
toodles

reminder: send alllllll the pics to dear cousin *

Mind-blowing!

2007-04-21T20:20:00.000+08:00

school's amazingly fine for this week.
(excluding the fact that my bag got slashed by some green-eyed fella, what the.)

was appointed the class' service-learning leader (plus ali). community work, anyone?
did folkdance for the first time during SPE, and rofl, i think i prefer playing tennis to this.

gotta know from ili that jack sparrow has difficulties in pronouncing words with the letter 'r' in 'em. "prata egg with curry, pls." HAHAHAA ABSOLUTELY HILARIOUS!! reality-check: nobody's perfect in this world.

hit town yesterday with aisyah and oh we had fun bitching, hadn't we? endless college politics and blahbitty blah. it's a pity that ili couldn't tag along- discovery of the day: PAPERPEOPLE AT FAR EAST PLAZA, YAW! their files & notebooks are truly, authentically orgasmic (i mean, literally)- you should witness our reactions upon entering the shop! 3 books for the price of 2, tell me who's stupid enough to not resist the temptation of purchasing those after the aforementioned proclamation of sale? jkhsdsjakdjaki must buy the pink one i must i must i must..

okay moving on, i saw my hmt-cum-gig-informant friend, iylia, ytd! mistaked one of her friends as paul twohill and he went "uhm, is that a good thing or a bad thing?". giggles, giggles. bumped into the company again as we headed to orchard mrt for funan mall and iylia went "oh diana, we, esp so-and-so were talking abt you all along okay!! lucky you're here and love, go check so-and-so's abs! I MEAN, GOD HIS ABS ARE FUCKIN HOT"

p.s: do you go around promoting your guyf's bod? -.- zomg iylia

love today's activity though it sounds a bit retarded- door-to-door collection of newspapers.

TASHA SYARA IDRUS YAY (: was with mom & pop at loyang pt, and then i saw 'em at macdonalds! miss ya'll so much okay. joined 'em for lunch and shared our daily happenings. mhmm. so luqman shaved his eyebrows to attain the metrosexualist look, i heard. doubly yucks?

screw super lecherous men to the core

Drained out

2007-04-13T21:55:00.000+08:00

yessa, it's already friday. oh how i cherish fridays, really

weekly life buzz: city hall with liyana on monday. exchanged daily happenings & of course, window-shopped together(like how could we possibly MISS that, lol). and then there's this corporate video shooting on wednesday. our scene's all about singing a couple of lines from our school song in the field while basking in the morning sun. director's very particular about the volume (and of course, our tuning, to be discreet.), and we gotta repeat like dozens of times before we got him nodding his head in satisfaction. economics test's up after the gobbledygook and i really, really hope i can at least reach the borderline mark. off to city hall again after sch to meet the boy (we haven't really met up for quite some time, haven't we? you're missssssed). as usual, we chatted at esplanade lib's cafe, cat-fought over some trivial matters (hint: major vocab mistakes/mini competition of whose voice's the best for way back into love etc), took snapshots of us together and then deleted 'em all eventually (it's always been like this since aeons ago), and blahbitty blah. truly awesome wednesday indeed (: thursday's a super nonsensical day because the clan sorta gotta know how my life's like in the past (re:sec one) and how i was forced to confess about the comical/embarrassing it, hahhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. who's been passing the rumour around in the college lately, that i'm still hintless. pfft. manifestasi audition in the afternoon. screwed the sad scene, but never did i mind- it requires 6times per week worth of our commitment(what the). etcccc. camera's rollin for corporate video shooting again for today, and today's scene was all about 'us taking examinations' in the hall. -.- and, i think i'm gonna be caught in camera, haha! oh no, how did i smile just now? oh fout.

utterly disappointed with the fact that coral band got bronze for syf. i believe we could've done better than this, really. work harder, guys! two years from now. my fellow juniors, esp

Clarion

2007-04-07T14:25:00.000+08:00

tpjc's songfest was truly awesome and oh, biggest congrats to my cheekens, aww. you guys really rock my socks, zomg.

my class managed to enter the preliminary rounds for sports day and guess what, i'm involved in 12 x100m relay! YEAH BIG SHOCK RIGHT, stop laughin, dude. i know it's uberly strange about the fact that i'm actually full of enthusiasm about this sports thingy but oh, it's been like years since i was a participant in this whole gobbledygooky occassion. my sister actually cackled at the thought of me racing on the track for the class, rofl! with all due respect to class spirit, i guess i'll just forgo this thought for once and yeah, just go with the flow and have fun sprinting, yay.
p.s: that sounds totally, uberly, pathetically WRONG hahaha

celebrated dj's birthday with a humble sara lee's chocolate cake with firecrackers mounted on top of it. looked ultimately hilarious; those firecrackers reminded me of joss sticks and hahahahaha, okay -.- he really is cute, right zizie? ;) aww, how adorable.

there'll be a malay lit camp in the upcoming june holidays. i'm so lookin forward to this; we might visit mediacorp, yesssssa! omg. mass comm. one of my dreams. camera, action, go! okay, that was random. oh and speakin of that, i might be joinin drama club. back to the topic, we'll be campin with innova jc. eyecandies, here i come, lol. (are there such people in ijc btw?) etc.

woah i can see massive grammar errors in this post, i think. pardon me so much

Jinxed(yours sincerely)

2007-04-02T23:20:00.000+08:00

blablaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
are we all designed to be confined?
i'm all wrapped up in pessimism right now, go figure

Joke pt1

2007-03-31T00:36:00.000+08:00

Q: How many RJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: 4 whole faculties. One to design the new bulb, one to manufacture and test it out, one to write a proposal on it and one to market it.

Q: How many HCJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: The whole school. To compete with RJC.

Q: How many VJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: The whole school. One student to screw it and the rest to cheer him on.

Q: How many NJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They can study without light.

Q: How many AJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are too busy trying to be in the top 5.

Q: How many ACJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They would rather pay YJC to do it.

Q: How many YJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Only one teacher to tell them what a light bulb is in the first place and to demonstrate how to change the light bulb. (So how do you think they were able to change it for ACJC?)

Q: How many CJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: They would prefer the dark. (Hmmmm... *raises eye-brows* )

Q: How many JJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Their physics is so bad that they made their macho male physics teacher cry.

Q: How many TPJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Would they even bother?

Q: How many SAJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They believe in praying for it.

Q: How many NYJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are still using oil lamps.

Q: How many SRJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: Huh, what litebarb?

Q: How many PJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: Heck the light bulb lah, the principal would do something about the rightbarbs. Let's do 300 jumping jacks for not wearing the proper school attire.

Q: How many MJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are too busy trying to get promoted.

Q: How many IJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are Innovians. They will find ways out of the dark.

Q: Who wrote all this?
A: A TJCian.

Q: How many TJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They think they are already very bright.

lol. comical right? rachel, you ah

and today's event was a success. i had joy ringing the bell.

One fine day

2007-03-29T21:38:00.000+08:00

wow, i'm like one hell of a fickle-minded lady, i tell ya. hahahahah shan't elaborate further!
p.s: no wonder dan & i can click together, rofl.

there's a major malay event going on tomorrow & i'm assigned to be the timekeeper. the dikir barat performance being an eye-feaster is a sure-thing, haha (or rather the performers themselves? lol!)
p.p.s: syara, bet you gonna love 'em all maaaaaaaaaan. dikir people)
and my whole cg's supposed to celebrate alicia's b'day at her place butttttttttttttt, lordy. screw the parents' meeting session.

a teacher reprimanded me for no good reason during PE, only to realise at the last minute that he'd actually mistaked me for some foreign j2 student (wth?). a couple of my friends initially indicated that i couldn't speak my own native language for i 'don't look like one'. (dude, i'm taking mlep yaw, so) and wow, i bloody hell love malay lit! heeeee. who says malay is boring? gosh and my teacher's really sarcastic about the whole issue on the minority who just can't simply admit that they're more or less malay andddddddd .......................................... okay what's with me. but i'm with her 100%. and that's why i actually dislike/detest heritage talks. (uh?) random post, can't help it. ETC. eh gwen stefani's hot, oh my. (oops, random entry again. watchin american idol right now blaaaaaaaabla)

okay that's it. toodles

Painkiller tablets, anyone?

2007-03-25T11:21:00.000+08:00

i'm suffering from chronic lethargy right now. HELP (!)

either band or whichever cca that requires minimal commitment; which's best for me? sgc's gonna be real beautiful if i persist on being a bandee, but -. eh tiredla seh, serious.
p.s: pardon the extremely singlish remark, pretty please pffffffffft

band concert's up yesterday night. i realise i really, really & really miss coral band, omfg. dyna, fred & the juniors plus ms ng went to watch us perform, aww (credits to sammy for selling the tixs; i simply can't be bothered in settling that task) & yeah, the comments were so much constructive, thx. ;) eww diana, sorry ah but that was uberly disgusting! (giggles) miss ya'll. and that hug's a pure reliever, dyna!

my classmates. absolutely wacky classmates i've got, akldfaalkjf- like can they get any louder? hmm. open yourself up, diana, really! but i can't la; i'm just semi-loud, get it? orrrrrrrr let's just say i'm less than averagely loud (perhaps 30-40% loud, to consider?). wow, incredibly math. but they're a gd bunch of people, so yeah. (= all smiles.
p.p.s: thank god i'm surviving

some of my friends got sick due to school shock syndrome (okay wth was that?). i feel for them hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, duh- 3 months of pure slacking & then BOOM, assignments and etc in one shot. danggggggggg. fever's coming on me now, come to mention of this. haaaaaaaah.

okay this is ironic, but but but- is there time still for poly appeal?
diana, you're ridiculous.

Spoilt embouchure

2007-03-17T11:46:00.000+08:00

re: wednesday's post
"....i think i love band?"

please. take those words back, damn. a concert's up next saturday and we newbies're left with only one week to practise. and the next major event that we gotta prepare for would be, uh what else but the freaking SYF, pfft.
p.s: gosh, i'll always miss mr wong (:
p.p.s: haha i love sammy.

i'll be checking out drama(malay/english), bowling & maybe squash when the new term starts next week. no band, please. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoo.

signing off,
music scores & super-running notes phobic
(no kid)